in response to the blogs that are now coming up, this isn't just the 1st, 2nd, 3rd or 4th chance they had.
grab some tea and enjoy the show! yes i'm copying this from the comment i made on the og post.
they were really excited about the roleplay, and it was thriving. they helped me a lot, and i also told them that i appreciated their help ㅡ at some point, personal stuff came up for me as well, and i disappeared from this website as well.
i've had the idea for the roleplay for about a year in advance as well. it was a nice little entertainment au focusing on bands. we had fun there, but them constantly criticizing my ideas for the upcoming groups and bands left me discouraged and killed the fun in that specific roleplay for me entirely.
so, as anyone who knows me knows, i'm very, VERY much into day6. and we had this band we had planned a comeback for, and i've been trying to pick a title track and album for them.
they snapped at me for the ideas i brought in. really, it was frustrating ㅡ they admitted to not care a single bit about k-bands and yet they didn't just let me pick the songs even though i know way more about the topic.
i felt uncomfortable. i was the main admin of the roleplay. they kept offering doing work for me, and i let them because i was scared they might get angry if i don't let them.
at some point, though, i decided that i couldn't work with them anymore. i decided that giving up on my beloved roleplay would be the best option ㅡ they killed my muse for it and the tension took a toll on me in addition to what's been going on at the time.
so i sent a text to the admin chat which basically said that i appreciate the work and time they had put into the roleplay but that i am considering closing it.
they went complete ape. gaslighted and guilt tripped me about how much time they had put into it, about how ungrateful i was (note: i showed gratitude for their contribution to the roleplay even when i didn't agree with them) and claimed that they even "stayed up for nights" to make it a good one. that was bull. they were up at ungodly because at that time, they couldn't go to work becauae of quarantine. i kept trying to explain that i did appreciate their help but they just didn't have any of it. told me they're so disappointed in me. that i'm a bad friend. that they wanted nothing to do with me anymore. they also told me they don't give a about day6 and that they wouldn't listen to the songs i had suggested for the comeback title tracks. because the only songs they know by day6 were i wait and another one but i don't remember which one that was. it was... an absolute show.
they told me they'd "always been there" for me.
truthfully, i talked to them when i had a mental breakdown twice concerning my dysphoria. and they decided to take the situation and make it about themselves, dropping stuff like "yeah i don't have dysphoria." they did provide some sort of comfort. but they were not "ALWAYS" there as they claimed. and they also did not stay up for nights just because of my roleplay. in fact, i often told them to go to sleep but they simply refused to lmao.
they also kept pushing me to rp specific ships with them and when i lost muse i was too scared to tell them because i was so afraid of them spreading bull about me. because they have that habit of not telling the full truth oftentimes. and people who don't know them can easily be manipulated because of this.
anyway in case they're reading this: day6 are doing amazing even without you caring about them, you are not the center of the world and you not liking them out of spite doesn't change the fact that they're way more successful than you will ever be with your ty attitude.
mic drop.
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