I feel so alone

"No matter what i do, what people do i will always be alone in the end"

"I know what it feels like to be alone, so ing well, no one would understand my pain"

"Friends say they are there for you, but once you leave for a while, they are not there for you anymore"

"I retreat to crying because it feels better, but i dont cry, because it makes me weak, and i am weak inside, but no one notices."

"I hate feeling like none of my friends care. It hurts and i feel lonely. even in real life, i say i have friends. but they dont really care...do they?"

"Kpop, EXO, SHINee, BTS, LC9 all these groups...make me feel good, make me feel like someone cares, like someone is fulflling their dreams, but here i am, sick and injured, no one cares"

See the thoughts that go through my head, how i think my friends have more fun with out me? How i feel like ending my life? there is only 2 days till my birthday and i feel like . Some times i feel like leaving for ever is a good thing, i try not to cry but i feel like no one wants me...so i dont know what to do, people snapping at me "Be quiet she is doing something." Some people saying im mentally hurt when im actually hurt on the outside. No one cares, the laugh, bash me mak fun of me, im so tired of it. This may be my last day? 2 days till my  birthday girl found dead. You know how much im scared, thinking no one cares?