tws: cancer, medication, anxiety
hi hi. this willow, returning from a brief hiatus. thank you to those who commented on my previous blog as well as those who reached out to me via pms, i really appreciated it. i have changed my username back to my original since it was a bit weird to see it differently considering how long i have used deceptive (based off ahri) on this site.
with that being said, i am looking to have a couple of private rps set up now that i am feeling better.
my preferences are and straight, i am flex as far as position and variables go but i do like more mature plots whether that be angst related or related. if interested let me know and we can connect.
as far as updates go for those who messaged:
- i have been feeling better mentally but pretty crappy physicially. i was diagnosed with cervical cancer as my tumor, of which was initially benevolent, has returned and this time is in fact cancerous. i don't have much medical knowledge so everything is kind of a blur for me at the moment, but what is important is that while this is painful and scary, i will make it out just fine. i have had my first meeting with my new gynecologist oncologist and they seem pretty positive in general, though i know its their job to remain that way. i have an mri and ultrasound scheduled and will be proceeding this in the same mindset as my last run in with the tumor.
- some of you know that i was going through career changes, and that is finally settled and over with. i initially had a job lined up that ended up being a bit too physically dependent for my medical health at this time, so i passed it up. currently i am working a rather simple, but well paying job that does not affect my mental health like the one i quit from. i feel much more happy at work and no longer have that additional stress.
- for schooling, i completed that nightmare writing class (with a 98% mind you) and am now taking a semester off in order to focus on myself, and my life.
- other medical news; i have been taking medication for my anxiety and it truly has been making a difference this time compared to the last time i was prescribed medication for the disorder. it's relieving that it has been working. when my service animal passed away i really was lost for a while and really afraid of taking medicine again. i am glad i gave it a try.
all in all, while things are not perfect, and i am most definitely not 100% myself.. i am trying to remain positive and see the optomistic outcome of things rather than allow for my issues to pile up and become some sort of doomsday event metaphorically on my mind.
please take care of yourself and remember that there is always someone who cares about you.
<3 - willow
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