Within nature, you'd keep receiving.

Dear diary,

Kila isn't looking too good today and isn't actively responding when I call her name out. She was slow to eat and too lethargic to even get up and stand on her own. I'm worried about her declining health. Despite tempting her with a run or walk around the vast fields, she is still unmoving. Does it mean her time is about to come? I cannot tolerate that! Kila has been stuck in her pen for far too long and only came out for exercise on the fields as long as she wanted to until sunset. yet again, every time i prodded her to take one step, she mooed out of pain and it wasn't like any other moo she had made before which felt vibrant and positive. this one took the cake out of me.

because of that, I'm thankful the vast fields and the scenery give Kila the peace and calm she needed. The spaces where i bring them to grass just slightly up the mountains. The gentle breeze waltzing through the pen shed that give the cows a bit of cool environment. if not for all of these, i would have so many stressed-out cows on my hands. And Eunheul being my birthplace gave it all. All i could say is it really just keep giving without asking for anything back in return.