sooooo hi

i guess this is a lil rant or just idk, i guess i'll dump out my thoughts cause i dont know where else to put them 

i haaate adulting. like, i really truly wish that time was slower and less busy because i just want to chill and rp like how i used to back in the day (i sound like a literal dinosaur saying that). but my motivation to write and life itself gets so unpredictable i really don't know anymore. i used to be so active on twt rp and all, but i get really guilty when i can't be as active and i always think my writing partners deserve more than spotty responses, so i just shut down and dip and the cycle goes on again and again.

motivated to write > real lif gets busy, work happens, or i just lose my motivation > has to stop rping and deal with it > wants to write and rp again

i'm going to rip my hair out grahhhh. i feel like such a pain in the to myself and everyone else :< but anyway, that's that - if anyone wants to deal with me and doesn't mind spotty activity or whatever, i'm open to rping on discord.

i think i've had my good run with mxm / rps so i'm looking for someone down to do mxf with my muse being the female. i do enjoy supernatural themes, forbidden love, mafia, royalty etc. anything angsty and dramatic is great tbh. open to dark themes and hard/taboo kinks. i'm open to brainstorming. 3rdpov only, mir-lit.

hmu or comment!