This won't be laid out super pretty since I'm on mobile, but it's as the title says. I think it's about time I took my leave from this place. If not permanently, then at least indefinitely.
For as much as I adored my time here, things haven't been the same for a while, and I'm sure some other long-time users might agree. The overall atmosphere of the site has shifted (whether that's a positive or negative shift, I'm not quite sure), and it's become a very lonely place if you're not the most social butterfly. It's increasingly difficult to find au roleplays that I'm interested in (and this is a key factor that determines whether I'll join a space or not) with a committed community dedicated to actually writing and storytelling. Most that I've seen and been in, no matter how much I loved them, usually popped up and then died within weeks. I've had my fair share of beautifully written and thought out threads with people—sometimes multiple—as well as individuals with whom I've never gotten beyond the plotting stage before they up and vanished, and I'm admittedly very tired of it. My enthusiasm for my characters and for storytelling can only burn for so long without proper fuel (that fuel being some semblance of dedication to the story, some reciprocity in said enthusiasm, and actually writing versus leaving the ideas on the stove for too long), before it either runs out on its own or is intentionally snuffed out.
And, truth be told, with everything else going on in my life, I really don't have the same time to regularly commit to writing that I used to. Of course I'll always want to brainstorm and write things, but I can't feasibly keep up with the activity requirements most places have nowadays. It's very difficult, and I'm very burnt out. If I'm to thread with anyone, it'd likely be private and in a space where I can safely take my time in writing adequate responses without feeling rushed or pressured by an invisible deadline.
I'll always cherish the friends and memories I made here. You've all truly gotten me through some of the roughest times in my life, and I will always be grateful for that. Maybe I'll return when the clouds in my personal day-to-day finally begin to clear up. For now, though, this'll be goodbye. Thank you all so much for everything, and I hope that life going forward will treat you all with kindness. ♥
By the end of my work day, this account will be deactivated.
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