i really miss

not even gonna lie, i used to write so much (even wrote novella with a few people) back when i first joined this site, and i think within the last couple years (maybe the last 3 years) i just havent had that sort of energy anymore. the /want/ to write is still there, but the energy just isnt. i had a lot more muse back when i was going through (my depression) but now that ive healed and grew up and found a good place to be, i just dont have the want or need anymore. i think i've also gotten to the point where i dont /want/ to spend anymore time on this site anymore than i have to or want to, personally.
i do however want to say in regards to what the user below me said- there's also nothing wrong with having "chat based" rps. people flock to what /they/ have the energy for and sometimes that's more fun to be around and be involved in. and everyone, as far as i can tell, is at that age where we're doing grown up stuff and have grown up lives. sometimes all we want is to have a place to come to that isnt creatively demanding on us like our personal lives are. it often boils down to looking in the wrong places for what you want and expect. there's a few good au rps around here that are relatively active that have people willing to write.
ultimately that sorta thing is draining, and work drains me enough as is. i dont want to come online and be expected to fork out mentally draining replies and have expectations thrown on me that i just dont want.

HOWEVER, i still love to write, my time and energy just isnt what it used to be, and i'm also pushing the age that it's getting harder to find reasons to still be here if it wasnt for the people i have as friends. i went off on a whole tangent but that's just my personal feelings and thoughts on the matter in regards to your post and what others have said. i agree heavy with freckle's comments.

Freckle nailed that so hard.

On top of their raving comment, I'd also like to add that sometimes you get burnt out and you need to take a break. I've been rping as a whole for 16 years and know that you can only rp so long before your mind needs a creative breather or break. Mine are typically a month at a time, when they do happen. I wouldn't stress it! Take a break however you can, good writers and ideas will still be around!

Also it doesn't help that most rps here are chat based and there's little rping going on. If you're the only black sheep (so to speak who writes and has indepth characters) verses everyone else who has 1 dimensional 'flirty' as a personality trait, with no background or thought out /anything/ that can also sap your creativity.

honestly i feel like this is the general consensus all around on the site and really i think everybody needs to reel back on grand narratives and perfect writing and do more cheesy plots and one liners to get back in the groove of it all bc i was having more muse and fun when we were glomping and throwing confetti to welcome people to the rp lmao i think elaborate plots and threads that challenge my writing are great but they're also emotionally draining and time consuming and i don't have that kind of currency to be spending on this site in large quantities like i did when i was an unemployed teenager who was on this site to procrastinate on my algebra homework afjghkj being on this site was not intended to be a long term thing to begin with and i think we just need to adjust our expectations :\ don't feel like you need to write if you don't want to write, sometimes it's just nice to have a place to return to at the end of the day and it's alright if that place is rpr