So for a while I've realized that I just feel weird on here, like it's not the same. Kind of like I'm not putting that much into my characters anymore. In the past I was so invested in my characters to the point where I felt it in real life. Now that still happens but not as much. And before you could tell, that the characters I had were deeper and now they just aren't.. some still are SOMETIMES.
And I think I finally figured out why. It all started earlier in the year. There was other stuff going on, but there was one thing that even less people know about, maybe two. I think so little people know because I feel embarrassed and ashamed that I actually let that happen. I let myself fall in love over the internet. I really did~
Then he ended up leaving a couple months ago, saying he would talk to me on aff, but he never responded there. And I found out why. He was playing me. He had been saying almost the exact same things to someone else. There may have been others too but I don't know. And I think that is when I started to detach myself from here. I just don't want to have that happen again, I don't want to have to worry about talking to someone in ooc and falling in love again. And I felt like I was going to boil over when I figured this out, so I had to put it somewhere. I know most of you really don't care, but if you don't, then just keep going on with your lives. I don't mind, I'm turning into one of those people who don't care either~
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