Ughhhhh

I miss her. I miss my ex gf. She was my girl girlfriend and I really liked her. But she ed up big time and tried to make it seem like nothing. 

Anyway I've been really lonely lately and I miss her so much. What's worse is that it was a long distance thing so I never even saw her in person. So I don't get why I miss her so badly.  I think about her almost everyday. And whenever I get depressed I miss her so much it makes me cry. Like wtf is wrong with me. Maybe if I find a new love I won't miss her so damn much. 

I was this close to messaging her today and I stopped myself.  I hope if I find someone I get that close and open with them as I was with her. Now if I do find someone and its not as good as with her should get her back? The idea of getting her back makes me happy but damn it all if she didn't hurt me so many times and act like it was nothing and I was overreacting. /sighs/ I wonder if having a would make this all so much simpler. /dies alone/