I hate you so much

Trust.

It was something I barely gave out to anyone.

love.

That was something I rarely told anyone.

love & me never got along for some reason, cause every time I said it my heart was broken afterward.

So i closed off my heart completely & I've been fine till i met that one certain person.

I thought we could have gotten close, that maybe i could have someone i could lean on beside my cousin.

How stupid i was to let my guard down when my gut told me not to.

The minute i told him how i felt, he said said we could work some things out.

I knew Love & trust were never on my side yet i was determined to get closer to him.

Things got better, well for me they did.

after that he started to talk to me less & less.

i thought he was busy, that he probably didn't have any time

but he was doing everything else in the world, not being busy at all.

Now i wonder what the hell i got myself into.

I hate him now, those sweet feelings i thought i had for him disappeared

& my determination was gone after that.  

To say that i didn't like him before would be a lie, but now i hate him more then i hate anything else.

these are the reasons why i hate my dad.