I love doing RP with my favourite kpop idols. People are so welcoming and are really nice.
At first it's really exciting. Then after you've stayed in the rp for too long. You get so lonely and you feel deserted & you feel like no one wants to talk to you and you feel so alone somtimes. You keep talking to them then one day they just stop talking to you like you don't exist. And your having a hard time orz There are also times that I wanted to leave but I've meet so many awesome friends that I decided to stay.
On my first RP, I played Luna from FX. In that RP we have an anon confession. My best friend is Suzy. Her boyfriend is Kikwang. Then this idol posted in anon confession and said "Kikwang you deserve someone better than Suzy" When I saw that post, I help and defended Suzy. A few weeks after, she posted in anon confession "I hate Suzy & Luna for making dramas. That's why I hate this RP" when I saw it I broke into tears as ooc. I guess I got affected. Who's the wrong one here? I was only protecting Suzy.
I've been in that RP for 3 months now. Suzy left the RP and once again I broke into tears as myself, ooc. I'm sensitive in real life that's why. Every time my character feel sad, I also feel sad. Every time my character feel hurt, I also feel hurt. I get so attached with my characters not just in one RP, my other ones too.
orz why am I like this? I feel like the RP is real. I already talk to someone about this. She said "Just play. Don't act like this is your life. You are not your character, you have a life"
She got a point I am not my characters, I am myself.
Lesson of the day: Never Play Your Real Life in RP(s) & Just play your character
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