taemins

                     (Guys, guys....Taemins step dad in my story is super super bad. )

The blade cuts into my skin, I breathe in and hang my head back. It hurts, of course It does, but it keeps my mind off the bad things. I do another one, and another one, until my whole shoulder is covered in cuts. The blood seeping through my shirt , running down my arms. I smile with tears in my eyes.  I made another mess again…

I quickly go over to the bathtub and turn it on. I only cut in bathrooms, so I can quickly clean up the mess. I begin to undress slowly. I am tired, emotionally and physically . The room was already filled with steam. I go over to turn the faucet off but stop. There was a loud slam. I quickly look behind my shoulder eyes wide. N-no please, He wasn’t suppose to be home today!

“Taemin open the god damn door now!”  Father was hitting the door with his fist.

I start to shake and whimper.

“H-hold on! “ I quickly grab ahold of my pants and try to put them on without falling.

“No, right now god damn it!”

I run over to unlock the door. When I open it my father instantly barges in and grabs a handful of my hair.

“What the did I say about locking doors in this house?” He’s drunk, I can tell by the way he smells and how he’s slurring on his words.

“I-I’m sorry! I forgot!” I winced; it feels like someone’s pulling off my head.

“You won’t forget after I teach you a lesson!”

He then slams my head into the steamy hot bathtub. My face feels as if it had been on fire. I screech and scream in pain, but all my father hears is a tiny screams.  It hurts so much.

I kick and punch the air, I couldn’t breathe, It hurt I couldn’t breathe! All of the sudden father lifted my head up so I could breathe. I gulped in the air, breathing quickly. I thought he was going to stop after that but he didn’t…

He ped his pants and began to take them off, I just tightly closed my eyes and shook my head no over and over. He forced me onto my knees and started to touch me all over. This…this all over again?

I winced as he slowly slid into me, I bit my lip and hung my head back. He then out of no where ducked my head into the water again. He slammed in and out of me while I was struggling for air. In and out, pinch and slap. Mommy….why…why did you leave me with this “man”