HIATUS; warning..

I've been drifting between semi-hiatus and activeness for awhile now due to school, projects, projects, projects, and roleplaying. Starting mmm, lets say Monday, I started my hiatus. I will be on hiatus until thursday night. Sure that leaves us about four days. But this is important because... I'm always online even during hiatuses but I cannot roleplay, I cannot answer to your calls or anything.

I was already bit behind on school, but I've missed five school days; the 6th, 9th, 11th, 12th, and the 13th. At first I missed school because of the ice on the roads, then because of a certain situation, and then the following three days was because I fell ill and then had to go to the doctors.

Any way I'm as good as I'm going to get now, taking away my already present health problems from the temporary virus that passed me.

So I have only two things on my mind right now and that is SCHOOL and the Blood Bath (ahem my roleplay).

There are sooo many things that have to do with school, and mind you I only have four days to catch up with two weeks worth of school not to mention the four days of information they're going to try to cram into me in addition. I'm already on probation so I cannot let this fail me.

So I must learn to control myself for the next four days, which never works. So please please please don't let me make small talk with you because I will be ever more tempted now that I have to concentrate. If I even try to do something or you see me online just smack me upright and tell me to get back to my school work or the workings for the Blood Bath. I cannot work, I repeat cannot work on anything else.... or its likely my internet priveledges will be revoked for weeks, and I cannot let that happen at a vital moment for my roleplay.

I don't know how to control myself and need others to do so for me. Its a bad habit, I'm relient and easy to push around. But really. OTL. I can't control myself. But I need to. At least for these four days ;A; especially today. lskdjfalksdjfalksjdf

this is more half-rant and sob about myself than anything but oh well .-.