A Letter from J to S

Dear Sehunnie,

I am writing this as I watch you sleep so peacefully besides me.

The pregnancy really has its toll on you, huh? Even after I told the bub that he should not make you tired.

I am really sorry, Baby.  [I know you will scold me and tell me it is not. But it was my , and even though you like my – I heard what you told Gege the other day! – it was part my fault and I’ll take full responsibilities of that.  –But are they really good and musky? Huehuehue..]

You must be wondering why I am still up but I can’t help it. Well actually, I did this several time because it keeps me thinking to that first night when I got to cuddle you closer like this.

Do you remember it, Baby?  We were sleeping for the first time here in this bed. It was purely innocent, I know, but I was watching you slept like this too, so pretty and lovely.

You haven’t change at all.

You are still the one who makes me fall head over heels time after time, again and again.

You once asked me when I fell in love with you and I answered that night.

I was wrong though…. I should answer it as: Every Day… Every Time…

·         The first time we made love...

·         The day we dancing under the rain…

·         The moment you said yes to my proposal even with my lack of possession….

·         The seconds you said “I do” and I almost faint….. (that’s true, check Hyung)

·         That night in our honeymoon when we made love in front of the window….

·         The minute you told me you’re pregnant with Chinsun….and then with our son….

·         Even those days after we fought and made up….

I fell in love with you every time….

And I think I will fall in love with you hundred millions time again as my love for you is huge and overwhelming, but I would want it the same.

Anyway, I am writing to you because I want you to know how I feel about you.  Well, I know you know, but sometimes I am not a master of words and I stutter when I have to speak and I may end up hurting you instead.

I would never want to hurt you by the way, you’re the most precious thing in my live, you and our kids, so I want to keep you forever if you allowed me too.

You may never see this letter because I am torn between slips it under your pillow so you read it when you awake and I probably already gone to my shift or throws it into the drawer in my bedside where I place all of your sketches until I dare to give it to you.

But whenever it gets to you, I want you to know that I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

I may be thick and careless, so you need to hit my head from time to time, but my heart is yours and it would be forever there so please keep it well.

Yours always and forever,

Jongin.