owie ;A;

someone needs to take away all dairy products from my house. now. 
those precious delicious milky substances that i just want to devour. 
i think its worth it as i savour it. but then afterwards when i'm dealing 
with all the intense pain. its not worth it. i need to control myself, but
OTL how. as most of you know, or don't know, i'm lactose-intolerant so
milk doesn't really sit well with me. i steer clear of anything heavy in
milk but sometimes i just gotta have some. i don't have a severe case
of lactose-intolerance since a dab of milk or cheese doesn't usually hurt
me ( i say usually because... ). i mean most coffees are sold with regular
milks and creams. and they're so presh. its annoying to buy coffee made
with soymilk or almond milk, not to mention expensive. i generally sit at
home drinking soy chocolate milk or soy coffee. occassionally a dose of
almond milk or soymilk when i want something to cleanse rather than
savour. but my soy coffee isn't sold at my normal grocery store so i
have been buying regular coffee to drink mixed with my soy chocolate
milk. and its sorta bothersome. but then my mom brought home dairy
queen yesterday. and she is well aware of of my sickness, but still she
bought me a dairy queen coffee. now those are extra creamy and milky
cause of all that ice cream. and not to mention fast food also makes me
sick... so i was all cramping and sweating and feeling like i was dying in
pain yesterday. i get stomach pains so often and yet it doesn't make
the pain any less easy to handle. fast food, dairy, my regular food make
me sick. now you're probably thinking, 'your regular food? how?'. well,
ever since i had started eating almost all my foods with hot sauce since
my dad and his side of the family did so. as i grew older i needed more
hot sauce in said foods to be able to really taste the flavour. i far
surpassed the bulk of my family's, even the full-fledged adults, ability
to withstand the spiciness of foods. however, because on a daily basis,
i douse most of my food with hot sauce, like literally pour gobs of it
almost all meals, i've damaged my stomach. i'm extremely sensitive to food.
and i get sick and stomach pains all the time. its weird to not have a day
with stomach pains. i assume i'll be needing surgery soon, as my aunt did
too for the same reason basically. not to mention i don't eat my vegetables.
at all. at all. like. nothing. seriously. i can't even think of one vegetable i eat.
i don't even like potatoes. i srsly can gag or vomit just by smelling, having
something like lettuce to have 'touched' my food. my mindset is so
strong, that even if i want to try eating vegetables my gag reflex
rejects. no vegetable can have touched my food or have been near my
food. i can smell it. i can taste it. you don't know how annoying it was to go
vomit in restraunt bathrooms all the time when i was kid because cooks
couldn't get it right when i said no vegetables. anyway.. i kinda went off
on all ends on this blog. and i don't even remember what i was talking
about. oh right, dairy products. hehe ^^;
oh hey look, i didn't use georgia font for once!