I just cant

Im sorry if im making you all sad with my blog posts But this is the only place i can rant~

its been just a few hours i found out That Our Robbie...Is gone

and the more time passes the more painful It becomes...

they say time will heal the pain...

i believed that when i lost my first bestfriend two years ago, i still believed it when i lost my grandmother this summer...but i dun believe it anymore

What if time becomes the pain....?

i talked to him everyday, every minute almost all the time and suddenly getting that taken away from me is way too much....Just way too much for my liking

I have never felt so much pain

and what hurts me more is that im too far...i cant even bring a single flower to him

I cant take my mind off it and no matter how much i try my tears keeps on spilling

i ask myself....Why does this have to happen when im in the weakest point of my life?

cause it crushed me....I never rant in my blog posts but maybe a bit of rant would make me feel just a little bit better

I just want him to be here

i want him to be alive

and i wish i could even talk to him more, apologise for a few things i did

i didnt even get that chance

They say you never know what you have until you lose it

But i disagree

we always know what we have...we just never think we'll lose it....