The white face definitely hit a chord with me. I think I told this story to a friend once before but when I was around 5 or 6 one of my cousin was born and her mom brought her into town. She looked over at the baby and said "She's light and bright and pretty just like us" both her and her daughter was light skin. Once she made a comment to my grandma when her health was down and said "I'm getting dark just like you."
I don't know how I overheard that comment, but it just made me look at my own skin and think 'Am I dark and ugly?' I think that started me down a very long road of self hate, I'm mostly over being not light enough since most people don't comment on my skin color which made that memory even odder. I've been bullied about everything except skin color but that was one of the ones that hit the harder. It's probably why I have a harsh reaction when people complain about their skin getting darker. I know there's a myriad of other problems she addressed in her video, something everyone can relate it. Then again, I enjoy following half-black musians in Asian (I've been an extremely big fan of Crystal Kay for almost a decade and she can do no wrong other than she can stop getting her nails done so much and hit the studio more often.)
That and I'll forever think I'm not pretty enough, which confuses me when people post pictures of themselves and call themselves ugly. Hell, my own facebook don't have my picture on it.
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