2 YEARS WITH B1A4;;

TWO YEARS AGO, TODAY.

This is what they were. Young and handsome boys starting out in the KPOP industry. They had talent and weren't afraid to show it. Being a new boyband, they were still quite shy, but managed to show off who they really were : Down-to-earth boys that moved every girl's heart <3 

TWO YEARS AGO, TODAY.

I didn't know them. I, myself, was still starting out in the kpop hallyu, trying to memorize names and to connect them to faces. At the time, I only had eyes for SHINee and BEAST and was barely memorizing the name's of all the girl's in SNSD. Oh, how clueless I was. I thought I'd be the ultimate SHAWOL and B2UTY for the rest of my life, which is true, but I didn't know that that day, the boys who would've changed my life debuted that day.

What would it have been like if I watch thier MV that day? Would I have loved them as much as I love them now? Would they be my ultimate group? 

But who cares? The past is behind me, and I look foreward to the future, treating everyday like my last. 

TODAY.

Today, these boys are my life. They are what I breath in and breath out. As weird as it sounds, I'm not exaggerating. wellmaybeabit. These boys are one of the reasons why I wake up in the morning. They're the reason why I want to keep going. They're my inspiration and they're my driving force.  They're something I could never see myself living without. These boys are the most precious things to me in the whole universe. Gongchan, Jinyoung, Baro, CNU, and Sandeul. 

If I could have those names engraved in my heart, I would. But it's already there. These boys are part of me and helped me discover a part of myself that I never knew about. Years ago, I never would've seen myself being so obsessed for a couple of dorky korean boys, but life has its ways of being weird. 

It's hard to express my feelings for these boys, because I have so much. A glimpse of thier faces brings a smile to my face and brightens up a gloomy day. Thier precious smiles and laughs are something that I'll always cherish. I love them so much. There are times when I hate myself for loving them so much, because life can also be very cruel by smacking you with the facts of reality, but today's a happy day and I want it to stay that way :3 

Looking back to O.K. days, I can't help but feel so proud of them. They've gone through so much, good and bad, yet they still have managed to be the down-to-earth boys I've known from the start <3 They're different personalities and dorky traits make me love them even more. They've grown from the little sprout and turned into a big flower :3 But, these boys are always growing, becoming more mature and handsome men every single day. 

Despite thier ages, they manage to be dorky and fun. I find it funny because sometimes, the elders are the cute ones while Channie is being reserved and more mature. A lot of the times, I miss the cute Channie, but I'm happy with the mature Channie now. Everything about him and them are perfect in my eyes <3  

I guess, I'll talk about each boy individually then :3

​I suppose I'll start with my ultimate bias and love, Gong Chansik. I don't even know what to say right now. This boy has grown so much, it makes me feel like a proud umma. I remember watching his individual cam for Only Learned the Bad Things and crying at how much he's grown in that video. For those who haven't seen it, in the beg., Chansik is shy and doesn't show much emotion except for a smile or two every once in a while when it's his turn. But towards the end, he starts to open up more and gets into the music. His cuter self shows and it made me so happy when he opened up like that. But, look at him now. Gongchan has gone through so much, yet he's stayed strong and has grown from a tiny little sprout <3

Everything about him makes me want to jump and scream, but at the same time makes me want to cry and sob. His perfection is my upbringing and my downfall. I love him so much, yet he doesn't know. When he had his surgery, I remember being depressed for days, wondering if he was going to be alright,. I remember jumping and screaming because of his fanservice because of fangirly-ness and jealousy XD This boy has made me feel emotions that are the closest I've ever gotten to love. And truthfully, I think I love Gongchan. I love him in a way that is undescrible. It's like, I love him as a fan, a girlfriend, a wife, a best friend, and any other relationships you can think of. Although, in reality I'm only the first one, I can't hide my love for him :3 My love for him has never faultered, although my reactions have been less "spazzy" because I too have changed. But this is about Gongchan and how much I love and appreciate him <3 

If I would ever meet him, I think I'd burst into tears. There aren't many that know this, but him and B1A4 in general are my driving force. If they weren't here, I don't know how I'd get up in the morning without dreading my life. I know I don't have it as bad as others, but I just want to express how important he is to me. I think if I met him, the first thing I'd tell him would be thank you. I'd thank him for being him and for staying him. I'd thank him for all of the work he's done and I'd thank him for...well, everything. Gongchan is my ultimate bias, and most likely, forever will be <3 

Chansik, I love you. 

Jung Jinyoung. You handsome halbae, go away. 

This boy...I don't even know what to say. I love this boy so much. He and Channie are always fighting for my ultimate bias list, TBH. But because I HATE THIS BOY SO MUCH, Channie wins in my little world. This old fart here ruins everything. He makes me want to punch his beautiful face to EXO planet. Jung Jinyoung's perfection is too much for me to handle. I remember legitly HATING Jinyoung in the beg. because he got too many singing parts, I didn't like his nasally voice, and I thought he had a bish face XD Oh, how stupid I was. To think this boy would manage to creep back up my bias list was really something. Except, this handsome old grandpa WAS my first bias in B1A4. Jinyoung just makes me go crazy. Now, everything about him makes me want to cuddle him and kiss him and hug him and UGH. I still want to punch his face to EXOPLANET though. 

Enough about his looks (even though they're perfect), let's talk about the leader himself :3 TBH, Jinyoung is probably the most talented and down-to-earth idol I know. He's so passionate about his work and never fails to impress me. I remember how when they first debuted, they promised to stay the same and not let the fame get to thier head. They kept thier promise, especially Jinyoung. Although he's grown, he's still a kid at heart and never fails to amaze me. His amazing songwriting skills BLOW MY MIND, his talent for archery BLOWS MY MIND, and everything about him just makes me want to punch him to EXOPLANET because he's EXACTLY what I look for in a guy. 

Although Gongchan is my ultimate bias, Jinyoung is my ideal guy. I think Jinyoung has the sweetest personality in the world and is the perfect boyfriend. Whoever that girl was before, she probably regrets leaving Jinyoung. I mean, who wouldn't? Just look at the face of his? But his beautiful face matches his beautiful heart <3 He's sweet, kind, caring, compassionate, passionate, responsible, romantic, and everything I look for in a guy. I think if I met Jinyoung, the first thing I'd tell him is that he's an amazing person and that I hope he'll continue to exel in everything he does. But of course, we all know that'll happen :3 Jinyoung is someone that I'd never be dissapointed in, no matter what he does. He's one of the best leaders out there with so much talent that he's already managed to make a little fox cave in my heart <3

Lee Junghwan.  This boy, is one of the most talented singers I know. Sandeul is an inspiration to me. His clear voice has never failed to amaze me and will amaze me for the rest of my life. The amount of talent he has is indescribable. But what completes the package his big, ducky heart <3 He's so sweet and derpy and never fails to put a smile on my face when I'm sad. He's probably the most derpy idol I've ever heard of, in my opionion XD There's no one that can compare to this perfect duck, because he's absolutely amazing in everyway and I love him <3 

YAH, CHA SUNWOO, PUT THOSE ABS AWAY. 

Oh, Baro. You wonderful derp rapper. This boy is amazing. He can rap, he's a freakin' fast runner, and he's AWESOME <3 Sunwoo is such a derp and a Taeyeon fanboy XD He's an amazing rapper with tons of talent for songwriting. I I don't even know what to say right now, because of all the feels I'm having XD Well, I think that Baro is one of the coolest boys out there, not to mention he has an awesome sense of fashion :D Sunwoo, I love you, you Squirrel Princess <3 Although, I'll really miss your squirrel teeth ;A; BUT I'LL LOVE HIM EITHER WAY. 

Shin Dongwoo. This boy right here is special. Like Baro, you're teeth were also fixed, but I love you either way! He's shy, awkward, and usually forever alone when it comes to shippings, but he's amazing either way <3 This boy has A LOT of talent, talent that he loves to show off. He's always trying to work and think out of the box, and I love that about him. He has talent as a rapper AND as a singer. He has such a nice voice and has a smile that would make my day. Shinwoo, I LOVE YOU <3 

It got a little short in the end, because I'm kind of busy >.< But B1A4 comes first for me, so I wanted to write this for them <3 I love them so much, and I will always support them, through the thick and thin these boys will always have my favor <3 

LET'S FLY, B1A4!