First of all I want to thank you. Really really thank you for this. You've allowed me to not only appreciate Zhou Mi and Henry, whom I was both previously neutral with, but also to re-immerse myself into the same fandom that changed my life forever.
hehe, I was merely going to thank you via PM but I really... really do appreciate the time you took to introduce me to Zhou Mi and his hardships because of people like me. Now, I know I never hated on Zhou Mi or Henry. But I didn't like the idea of an additional two to SuJu. More like I ignored it. I feel like I was the mother who did nothing when the father mindlessly beat the child for years. Because that's what I did, I may not have laid down a heart of hate towards them, but I did not defend them when I knew they were being hurt. It's truly a shame, a regret, that after all these years I've only just turned an eye towards Zhou Mi and Henry.
One of the videos you showed me, you warned me that I would cry. Being brutally honest, I thought I wouldn't cry. Since you are a huge Zhou Mi-stan, you'd easily be moved by performances. But when I looked into his eyes... those pain-filled, watery eyes as he sung that song of hardship, I began to cry. And even now, just the mere thought of it pains my heart and brings tears to my eyes. It's only been a few times I've cried due to heartfelt and emotional performances (not counting long-awaited comebacks).
The videos you showed me laugh and cry. Cry because it hurts to see such hard-working and amazing people have to put up with hate. Cry because I was laughing so hard. Cry because he's real.
I told you, I never felt "ot15". I always thought the addition of Zhou Mi and Henry was just.. that. A mere addition. There was no way the realtionship and friendship between SuJu and them could compare between themselves. But... the reactions, the friendships, the laughter, the way they took care of each other... it's real. I still don't completely "feel" ot15, but... I know I will come to accept them soon as it's only been a few hours since I began rammaging through everything you sent me.
Despite Zhou Mi's tall and toned masculine appearance, I could not believe how adorable and cute he is. Initially he caught my attention two days ago when I watched SuJu-M's Swing. His warm smile and refreshing looks made me replay his parts over and over again. I didn't even notice that I began to notice him. And it must have been the will of fate that you decided to comment on an old blog of mine and bring up Zhou Mi. Will of fate, that it made you forget to mention Yesung even though you thought you did, just so my mind would focus on Zhou Mi.
I don't know how to thank you except... Thank You. You may be glad that you have just got someone to pay attention to your bias (I know I would be), but this has been quite the experiance. A bit eye-opening. I'll be sure to fully support SuJu-M from now on, and that includes Zhou Mi and Henry. I never fully realized it before, but they are, and always have been, apart of the Super Junior family.
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p.s. i finished watching and looking at everythin' you sent me. so... if you got anything else *overly excited* feel free to send me more!
p.p.s i just may, just maybe, might start shipping kyuhyun and zhou mi too xD
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