In the closet (ft. EXO esp Sehun)

A few of you may have been taking notice to the fact that I've been saying 'I'm still in the closet about Sehun' and the like. 

Why?

Well, some of you may recall an exo ranking blog, where I ranked all 12 members from greatest to least in terms of my liking of them. Sehun ranked last. And then I made a rant blog about Sehun and Sungjong stating I had always found them personally unattractive, even though recently they had started to have moments of being handsome.

And well, I think, as much as squirm and tell myself not to, I think Sehun has finally made it to my bias list. It's very difficult for me to accept Sehun  because of my preconceved notions of him. Its true that I didn't find him very attractive before (not saying he was ugly), but there were various other reasons that I felt strongly about which made me turn away from him and a few other EXO members. 

You see, like Tao, Sehun seems to have this really teasing personality. Like a little evil... maknae. And I really like his newly found image now that he's further broken out of his shy shell. 

However... However... I still can't get it out of my head that 'I'm not /supposed/ to like Sehun'. A long time ago... say History-Wolf time, I noticed various times where Sehun was the only member not to bow. I always felt, from what he said or did, regardless of his quiet and shy behavior on shows and such, that he was just.. rude. Not rude like 'i hate you' rude, but just rude enough for me to turn away. 

On the other side of that, taking away the behavior that I put to him, and the physical features which I thought to be lacking, his parts never stood out to me either. Some of you may even recall laughing at me when I was freaking out because Sehun did not allow me full acess view to Chanyeol and Tao on the Growl MVs (both). Because Sehun was right there dancing in the middle, again not that I /hated/ Sehun, it was just I was uninterested and disliked him, whilst, I really wanted to see Tao in full view. But Sehun's face and legs kept blocking the camera.

Sehun's growing variety personality, as I assumed it would, grew on me. I didn't think it would grow on me this much. He's similar to Tao, and I think I ship their friendship OwO; Even tho earlier I was angry that I was starting to like SeTao, when TaoHo/SuTao-is-for-life xD

So basically, I'm still really conflicted about my feelz for Sehun. He's not ultimate bias material, long way from it really. But, I really am in the Closet about Sehun. So I wanted to open that closet a little with this blog.

But yeah. Still.. *hides in closet again*

can't.