*sighs*

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Author--Tszuj
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I admit it. I'm still hurt. I tried to got over the depression and misery but starting to build a new 'party/nightclub' RP but I stopped because I couldn't see who else would really want to join an RP for depressed people to forget their worries than me. Selfish I know...

I'll try to open it up... Do my bit and make people smile again. 

But coming on this site and checking certian characters... checking certian RPs and the people in it. It still hurts to see the things that go on. I remeber I got kicked out of his RP for creating a survey without the admins consent. It was for this stupid rule that meant you could only RP in the walls. Rather that worying about the rolplayers happiness, she was only worried about upvotes and activeness to gget it featured. I got kicked out for 'making people uncomfortable' even thought most people willingly answered the survey.  

There was this new RP I said I'd join, but I'm reluctant noew because that is there. I know I'll do something stupid like being spiteful on purpose. Just seeing her name hurts becasue she severed several connections I had. That charachter was the one I had that was closest to my true self: Shy...afraid...lonely...burndened/ scorned possessive and scared to let anything go.

After spending time away from this site... I realise, it is possible to leave... It's only when you come back that you realise your hopelss without this place.

It wouldn't be hard for me to leave if anyhting else bad happens. I'll be sad, and Maybe one or two people will be upset too but you know...life goes on.

Meh...

RPR is so addictive...>.<

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xicewolf 10 years ago
Hi, I haven't really spoken to you but that admin shouldn't have acted like that. I've been on an rp where they wanted us to only rp on the story and everything and if we rped on walls, we could get kicked out. So most of us did PM or still rped on walls and the admins weren't too happy about out >.< ah well.
I myself have had situations where my characters (almost all my characters are, whether it's a guy or girl) are connected to myself in some way, through their past or even their personality.
I went away from here for a while once and then came back after realizing some things that were happening on an rp. I did the same thing with aff and I found I couldn't just stay away. They're both so addictive, especially when it comes to roleplaying. Anyway, if you do see that person you detest so much, simply don't roleplay with her or join and make sure you don't speak to her and if she tries to speak to you, ignore her because she isn't worth your time because of what she did to you. Don't let what happened in rp affect who you are as an actual person. I've seen tears and ooc fights go overboard because of things like that and it was bad...

This is just my opinion but I hope things get better for you and if you need a random person to talk to, my wall and PM are open.....so yeah :3
MajoraTwilight 10 years ago
Hmmm...I haven't talked to you but I'm sorry you dealt with an admin like that :( I've never heard of a rule where you can only rp on walls though it sounds vaguely familiar. But anywho. I'm not the best at comforting or giving advice, but I think it'd be best if you just blocked the person and stay away from them if they give you trouble like that again.

I'm the same way for AFF to be honest: I keep coming back to that site even though I've been on a five month hiatus from it ^^;
KaiLyann 10 years ago
Hey!
I understand what you mean although I only left fr a week and only returned because I friend of mine here was hurt that I left after a blog post (that I had hoped everyone read). So I returned yet I do think it is sometimes a bit too addictive and you should definitely try to keep your distance if it's affecting you as a person. The moment something in here affects you and not your chacter back out.
HOKAGE8AVATAR 10 years ago
.........you have said everything I've felt now....
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