Since this is my first ever blog post here on RR, I guess I'll try to make it lengthy. Also cause I do wanna talk in depth about this whole roleplaying thing. You see, I'm not so sure if all of this is healthy for me to be honest 'cause since I started and it wasn't here that I did - it was so much fun just trying to put yourself inside the shoes of your favourite idols. I have always been a kpop idols roleplayer and I guess by actually drowning myself in that world, I developed certain bad traits such as the need to just shut myself out no matter the circumstances.
Compared to the other hardcore roleplayers, I'm practically still a newbie and I'm not exactly keen to get myself into the next level. I roleplay my best on Twitter and here, I guess not so much or is it cause I'm still getting used to it, mollaseo. Eitherway, things are looking rather steady since I know how to balance my time better these days compared to a few months back when I was just a ing messed up kid (maybe I still am, we'll see how it goes).
A month ago I was so sure that I was ready to leave this hobby behind since it had affected me critically - I actually had emotional turmoils and we all know just how ridiculous that is. Seeing as everything should remain scarce and no attachments whatsover should develop - I was pretty much straying from that one rule. I didn't mean it though, I swear. As a person I could always care less and I didn't know what happened but just got me wanting to kill my character and be done with it.
It was only mid April that I realised that I could go back and I could try again - and I did. I sort of found a new light? I guess you can put it that way. It felt nice to be able to breathe and just have fun like how I did when I just started. Things should remain subtle and if people still go against you, who the hell cares.
But then again I'm still a complete darling once you get to know me.
x, Park Chan Young.
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