My sad life :'( I wanna die...

Haish.. I've recently broken up with my boyfriend and I still can't move on.. We live in the same country but we can't see each other because of my strict parents.. I thought that I could be with him in the end if I fight for our love and relationship. But I guess I do not really deserve an amazing guys like him. My parents arranged me to some guy that I will marry after I graduate. I never knew these arrange marriage thingy still exists. Sigh... They wanted me to date him and forced me to do it when they found out I have a boyfriend. They blackmailed me that they will hunt for him if I don't break up with him. My life is like a fiction, a dream but I didn't wake up to my dream reality. I don't know what to do now. I hope he will be able to forgive me...because if I know he forgives me, I can live on with my life. I will try to keep my love for him inside my heart.. Sorry...