遠方的愛
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what in the ing hell, i had to redo this whole thing bc i accidentally closed it. but i shall for my princess ( bc i just want to post this for some reason, and she's not going to see it anyways =3= )
YESTERDAY, i got on a bus with my friend and sat on it for 4 hours. it was all for surprising my girlfriend.
i left my house at 4 in the morning, scared as cuz i had a nightmare about this. but i persuaded myself for doing this, because yesterday, it was our second month anniversary. and i wanted it to be special. her friend had already had everything prepared, her going to the mall expecting the friend to come, and me surprising her. thank you to my rpr friend hysteric for setting this up and dealing with my spazzing .
i ing miss her rn. i want to cry, but i dont at the same time.
YESTERDAY, i got on a bus with my friend and sat on it for 4 hours. it was all for surprising my girlfriend.
i left my house at 4 in the morning, scared as cuz i had a nightmare about this. but i persuaded myself for doing this, because yesterday, it was our second month anniversary. and i wanted it to be special. her friend had already had everything prepared, her going to the mall expecting the friend to come, and me surprising her. thank you to my rpr friend hysteric for setting this up and dealing with my spazzing .
i ing miss her rn. i want to cry, but i dont at the same time.
when she got to the sanrio shop, she was at the front looking for her friend. and the friend obviously wasn't there. i quickly threw my bag at MY friend and walked over when her back was turned. when she turned around, she looked like she was going to cry. she kept on saying 'i hate you i hate you' and i just laughed it off. i thought that it might be awkward when i saw her butno- i hugged her tightly
; u ; haha she was adorbs. whenever we paused, she'd lean up and kiss my jaw, cheekbone, something like that. it was because she's shorter than me ( by around 5 inches ) and wasn't wearing heels. she's also older ^_^
she told me later on in a text that she thought she was dreaming when she saw me. i thought i was too, i thought she wasn't going to show up. you know, those dramas where everything happens in slow mode and they hug hella long? i wanted to hug her forever.
we walked around, bought couple rings, same pandas, and i bought her a similar phone case to mine. it was one of the wallet phone cases. we went to eat, and never let go of each other's hand ( except when i went to the bathroom, and sometimes accidentally slipped my hand out to check my phone ) and when i did slip my hand out of hers, a few seconds later she would be holding my arm ( or going back to holding my hand ). when she was finally going to leave ( around 3 hours later ), i forced her to take a picture with me. and i couldn't stop hugging her. she said she lost weight, but i told her i wasn't proud of her. i told her to gain weight. shes absolutely perfect but i don't want her to be really skinny, its not healthy.
when she did leave though, she expected a kiss from me. because this is obviously my first relationship and i don't know how to kiss ( ; n ; shame on me ) i didn't give it to her. and i regret so. i miss her touch, her hugs, and her kisses right now. even though it was 30 hours ago, it felt like a whole year ago. did i say that already?
we both miss each other...and have told each other that multiple times when i returned to my own city. and even now. i have an excuse for saying 'i miss you' because i have actually met her.
she did tell me something in the morning though. she told me 'I couldnt let go of it last night when I found it under me when I woke up xc'
she was referring to the panda. don't worry, love, i hugged the panda to sleep. but i don't think my mom will let me anymore. i'll try to persuade her.
i can't feel her warmth in my hands. meh, i can cry myself to sleep for the next 365 nights before i finally see her again. and that might be next summer. :c
but thank you if you are STILL reading this blog post. ^^ i'll give you a cookie.
to my princess, i love you. i miss you, and i will never leave you even if you get mad at me for no reason. i'll always be here for you, and i'll support you in your decisions.
i miss your hold, your warmth, and hug. when i saw the couple ( two girls ) on the subway, i almost cried. how i was wish we were in their place, on a subway, holding hands, and going home together. mm.
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