Reduction

SO, for once in my life....I get to do something drastic...that my parents approve of.

AND its for free...

Ever since I was 9 I always had a bigger chest than most girls....But you know at that age I thought "Well, it's cuz I'm older than them obviously."

I was the eldest in my class since the 2nd grade, due to being held back in the 1st for a major speech impediment I had. (That impediment is gone, but sometimes I still lisp on random words...especially when speaking Spanish TwT)

Anyways...I didn't think anything of my going from a flat chest to a B cup in a year. I thought that was normal...and I had for 8 years. I had always thought I was bigger because of my age....

In the 6th grade, I was already a D cup...I was starting to become overweight too, because it felt awkward to run or do any vigorous activity. I ran weird (and still do aish) And I was made fun of for it by the boys in my class....Of course...Boys know why I was running weird....So then my s were made fun of...And I started to think "Well all those girls in the class are a bunch of anorexic es that I jealous of my s."

But then 7th grade came around.

My doctor told me that I was overweight...so I had to start eating healthy and get in shape quick because I had really bad cholesterol...I was 4ft5 at 136lbs....to think....Im less than that weight now...and at 5ft1

Damn.

SO then, I started to do a sport. It was crew...And boy did I love it.

It was my ideal sport. No running. But a work out for my arms, legs and abs.

But it did really nothing for me...

Sure I slimmed down a little...but losing weight made me feel pain...

At the time I didn't think anything of it.

In 9th grade, my parents forced me to quick crew, because my grades ...(courtesy to my english and bio techers)

In the middle of the school year I switched schools...and then found out...once again...I was overweight

I was 140lbs at 5ft

My doctor told me my healthy weight was 100-105lbs

My HEALTHY weight because I'm so small

I didn't start right away, but that summer I walked up a huge hill everyday (cuz um...yeah my job is up a huge hill TwT)

10th grade I went down to 132.

I was happy I was able to accomplish something! But...something in my body felt wrong.

My back hurt too much if I stood too long.

When ever I went bra shopping my size went up.

10th grade I was a 34DD.

So I thought..."If i lose more weight Ill drop sizes"

So summer after 10th I ate healthier, I took extra walks.

I went down to 125lbs

But...My back hurt even worse by August...

And I thought "Maybe my bra isnt holding me right"

So I went bra shopping.

I went up to a 38DDD

I went into Lane Bryant(A store for women who are on the heavy side) to get a bra

Non of those bras were big enough for me

And if they were, then the sraps and around were too big for me...

Because "Fat women have bigger s than smaller women"

I never cried so hard in a fitting room before

Ive never cried in my life trying on clothes...but this time I couldnt take it anymore.

I tried so hard to downsize and it wasnt working...and all it did was put me in more pain and make me more unhappy.

I told my mom about it and we got an appointment with my regular doctor.

She told me that I really did get bigger in size, but shes surprised since my weight did go down.

She said to me "You are at a pretty nice weight for someone with your height. So I cant tell you that you should lose weight to lose fat...I suggest seeing a surgeon...you might have to get surgery."

So, my mom made an appointment to see abreast surgeon. The appointment was just to speak about my size...

According to the surgeon...Im carrying around 8lb of tissue..8 FREAKING POUNDS 

And here I was thinking "Wow...and I always joked with Duyen that Id be her weight if my were smaller...and turns out thats no joke"

The surgeon's nurse helper was surprised and amazed at what age my s started developing and how fast.

She asked what size I wanted to go down to... I said a Bcup

My mom got mad... "Men don't like girls with small s stefania. You cant get it back. Go down to a D itll look better. What are you trying to do? Be an asian girl? Be a boy?"

I merely replied "I want to be comfortable. I dont care if a guy doesnt like small s. It already bothers me when guys stare at mine now. And I dont want to be a D. I cant be comfortable with that. Plus...Duyen is a C mom....Most asians I know are C's and it look too big. I don't want to be that." That shut her up.

So then...I had to have pictures taken of my /coughsawkwardasman/

But this was to be able to get insurance...and guess what....I got insurance coverage.

I never felt so happy in my life. Something Ive wanted to change for so long, is finally going to be done.

I dont care if Im gunna be pain for a week, if Im going to have to take it easy for 2 months.

Its sure beats my having to walk around everyday in pain.

I cant wait till its all over