+thoughts

I really needed someone to talk to this morning and last night and as I was scrolling through the people in my phone and LINE I realized that the only people who did talk to me pulled away and won't answer and that I no longer have people I can go to at the ready with my phone when I really need help... Like this morning when I almost had a panic attack and last night when my anxiety was skyrocketing...

so now I'm sitting in the office working and watching American Horror story and staring at my phone wondering wtf is happening and I'm dying of cramps and it's just all so painful mentally and physically TT

and then to top it off... i see people i'm rping with answering others and I'm here like... kay... guess our plot wasn't interesting enough... which because i'm so desperately in love with our plots...