Real Talk...

I'm making this public in case people want to see it, or have something to say/disagree on.

I was talking to my friend Nicole, and others for awhile for the past few days about rpr, and how the meaning of it changed. A lot of people are biased, even for the girls - I notice that if you ask them to roleplay, they hardly respond or forget your post in a heart beat when a guy post on their wall. For me, I've been making plots for EVERYONE, I have that friendly-aura where I want everyone to feel welcome in any roleplay I co-admin/admin/ or join. I normally play as guys, and I know how hard it is for girls to get attention because I seen it.

There's a lot of rps - nothing against, , of course. But when I do see roleplays that allow all povs and ualities, the girls get ignored so much. For me, I join those types of roleplays as guys only, so I never really had to deal with that short end of the stick - but I've seen it. And then the girls jump on the guys that are straight or even taken? Like, people want to be in relationships so bad. Where are those friendship plots? Sister plots? Old High School buddies, Myth busting crew - the types of plots where everyone can be included and not have to wait on one person to respond to them? I'm saying this because as a person that roleplays as guys, I have these problems. I have people waiting on me to respond, and the moment they see me post elsewhere, they become hurt and angered at me.

But I also notice that people are starting to get weird again.

I'm getting weird messages from people in my inbox, and my characters inbox. Getting plenty of attitudes from other female rpers if my female character ( which is rare I even play as one ) gets “too much attention”, and I have already asked them if they wanted to roleplay - but they're not enthusiastic anymore. I'm starting to see a bunch of drama kings/queens come back to rpr, and join the rps I'm in - so I have to leave quickly, because I hate drama. I hate people joining rps where they're with someone I guess ooc - or have this possessive and weird atmosphere around them that makes the other person that was talking happily, shut down and ignore everyone else.

It's sad.

I don't feel comfortable anymore, either.

I only feel comfortable around my friends, and I don't want it to be like that. I don't want to close myself up and not talk to others, or post in the ooc ( since I stopped doing that since people enjoy repeating everything I say to their friends so they can come up to me, and bother me too ). I don't mind the pokes and such, but to honestly hit my inbox and tell me who I replied to OOC, and sass me up and down – makes me feel like I can’t post anything. Half of the time, I don’t respond to wallposts because people will stoop that low just to see when and how long ago you replied. And blocking doesn’t help, when they come back or have a second account you knew nothing about – and have been talking to that person for awhile.

Man, rpr used to be fun.

I'm not blaming the people on my friends list, but a very good friend of mine told me to just keep the people I have talked to the most, and know instead of keeping those who stay quiet and lurk around. It's weird. I don't like it, maybe you're not lurking around - but due to experiences, I take that to heart. So I'll be unfriending a lot of people today. No hard feelings. If we ever stumble upon each other in a roleplay, I don't care if you talk to me there! But my friends list is going to be strictly for friends, people I have talked to that are on hiatus, roleplay'd with and admire their style or that aren't extremely biased. Yeah, we all get thirsty a bit when our bias comes, but should we neglect everyone else that’s trying their hardest to plot with you? And I can honestly say, my friends that I know, are so different and it makes me feel good. They make people feel welcomed and do their best to make sure everyone feel like they can actually talk to someone in my roleplays. And I love that.

It sounds like I'm closing myself up, but I think this will be the best for now.

I hope you all have a bless day! Maybe I'm the only one that feels like this but, I need to post it.