Broken.

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Authorkookiethumper

Created Mar 2, 2015 12:00:22

Tags depressed sad

You'll be sorry when I'm gone.

I feel like a dead person, really. I have no time for sleep, for taking care of my health- Um, In reality I just don't care about it. It's funny. I laugh, I smiled, but... but it's not me. I don't know the person, which I see in the mirror. And I just feel so alone right now... the person whom I love the most just leave me. Oh, but she have her new, better friends; I'm not important anymore. I do everything for her, when she said "Be mine again' I gave her all my heart, all my love, but now It's over. I have really hard times, I'm so broken, and she just leave me... I do something stupid again, but nobody can see this. It's getting worse and worse, but everybody thinks that I'm okay. I cry almost everyday for four/five years. It's killing me, but I also can pretend. People from my school laugh at me, but... maybe I deserve for it? They say "We should buy you a knife, so you can go and kill yourself". I just sit quiet when I hear this... sometimes I don't want to talk with anybody, I don't want to trying, I don't want to breathe. And my mom thinks that I'm stupid or mad. Maybe I am mad? Who knows... I delate it later, I just had to throw it up; again. But... now I understand. I just taking up space. I'm just ing mistake. Now I see this. I think that somebody needs me, but it's a lie. I feel my time is running out. I just hope that one day I will be brave enough. I feel really weird when I write this, but it's unimportant. I don't know what should I say, so I just say sorry. Sorry for... everything.

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blanksilhouettes 9 years ago

What do you have to be sorry for? I may not know you personally, but I don't think you're a mistake at all. Everyone on this planet was made for a reason, and somewhere out their loves. I love you. Okay? Please don't do anything rash. To the extent of what you seem to be having right now, I can't say I relate, but I have felt extreme sadness. Sometimes I say I hate myself in front of people but I just smile and laugh it off when I really do feel that way sometimes. Anyways, you should know that everyone is beautiful, and you're beautiful. Maybe to you right now, I'm just some random person who doesn't know anything, and you're right. I know nothing of what's going on right now, but I'd love to help. So, just come to me if you need someone to talk to alright? No matter what time of day, or what it's about, just message me. I'll answer you whenever I can. I hope that helps ease your heart, even in the littlest. I'll be here for you.