...Help me...Ugh... ;n;

Okay... So, I'm still trying to decide if I should leave or not... Which is why my account is still here although I don't think I've really rped in about a month at this point? I managed to answer a couple...actually I think it was just one the other day, but yeah... To be honest, I've actually be more active on twitter. I think I've mentioned in a previous blog post that I have a tendency to abandon others for whichever one I've become more active on? I want to be active here again because there are so many wonderful people to roleplay with here and I really enjoy it. I'm sorry to everyone that has yet to receive a reply from me. I feel like I've honestly lost my faith in my ability to rp. I don't know what it is and I /still/ have yet to figure it out. *sighs* Can someone help me though? I really want to rp but I need someone that'll really be patient with me. My motivation to do things has gotten higher lately and I'm not feeling quite as sluggish as I have been. It might be because I'm getting even closer to my birthday and my graduation from college. Another year older and no longer an undergrad, right? It's pretty cool, I guess. But I want to roleplay something serious? I actually want to attempt fluff but I want to create a full story? I'm trying to figure out how to explain this... It'd be fun to try a group chat with maybe four people on line or something... I guess we could do it here, too, but one on one is also perfectly fine or more or less people. But I was a serious kind of fluff where there's possibly love at first sight or the characters gradually fall in love with one another. There could be or there doesn't have to be but I really just want to try a love story with character development and everything. I don't want a lot to be planned because I just want to see where things go. Just to really test the limits and create something unique with someone. I guess that's what I feel like I'm missing with rp lately. I know a lot of people are busy with school and work this time of year and that it's usually during the summer and winter when everything gets really active and fun and exciting but..Just a few people or just one person, please? I need to restore my faith in roleplay again, at least my own abilities, as well as storytelling. I have no limits or boundaries, such as yuri, , or het or anything in between. I don't really care but I want to try literate, third or first but at least in paragraphs. I really want to wind a story together with someone where we only get the basics and just...well, take off. Please? Anyone? (Ps. I'm sorry I write so much and since I'm on my phone it won't let me do paragraph breaks... I'm really sorry. ㅠㅂㅠ)