Diary Entry #1

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AuthorShyShy

Created Oct 24, 2015 17:02:08

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Yeah, decided to make diaries because I tend to bottle things up with home issues... so yeah...

Dear Diary,

I hate my mom, so much she is annoying me. Like she is trying to put me out for no reason. Like what the , ugh. I can't even, my brothers are pissing me off. Like now if I bust their face and knock their teeth down their throat I would be in the wrong. Like UGH~! Kill me now... I hate life at the moment and this is why I am always so ing depressed... Even though I know she is just bipolar. Just kill me now before I start cutting myself again....

4year Update? If you would have told me 2 years after posting this my mother would die, I wouldn't believe you. I regret those words, I wish I never said I hated my mom. I actually really do love her, she was one of my best friends even if we argued. I now realize, she only did the things she did out of love for me prepping me for the future. Even if she wasn't and she did the things she did out of anger, I wasn't the best daughter. Now I miss this woman. She passed Nov 1, 2017. Which is kind of the reason for my disappearance for like two years? I really wish I could take back all the things I said about her and to her. I wish I told her I love her more. RIP mom, I know I wasn't the best daughter and I was ignorant then but I hope I turned into the woman you are proud of.

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optimist 9 years ago

Wait what bro DON'T
Don't ever cut yourself. It's the worst thing to do. You can get addicted to it. So stop it. Cutting yourself is very dangerous. What if you cut too deep one day and you don't want to die?
Pull through. There are more things in life to look forward to. There are reasons for everything. The world is a cruel place to live in and oerhaps your mum just wants you to be strong. Think of it in a different way.
As for your brothers, they are growing up. Understand what they are doing. As a child, you would also have annoyed your parents just like how your brothers are annoying you.
Don't give up alright. Just be strong and have courage. If you have anything you want to share with me or if you have any problems, you can come look for me :)