I'm tired of being the good guy
So i'm a college freshman who is factionless. I don't fit in. on my first semester i used to be in a group but the leader HIM HARD, DISRESPECTED ME AND HIM FOR THAT I HATED HIM AND THE GROUP DISBANDED AND FORMED NEW GROUPS, KARMA HIT HIM WITH A NOW HE CANT CONTINUE COLLEGE, WELL IF YOU'RE WONDERING HE BLAMED ME FOR LOSING THE CLASS MONEY AS I WAS HOLDING IT, BUT IT WAS STOLEN FROM ME WHEN WE WERE ON GYM CLASS PLUS I WAS NOT THE ONLY WHO WAS STOLEN, MY OTHER BLOCKMATES LOST THEIR PHONES AND WALLETS TOO. NOW MOVING ON, I BECAME A PART OF THE NERDY GROUP IN MY BLOCK, EVERYTHING WAS GOING FINE ING FINE! TILL THE SECOND SEMESTER CAME, DAY 1 THEY STARTED TO IGNORE ME? LIKE WTF?!?! WHAT DID I DO? I ISOLATED MYSELF JUST TO LET IT COOL DOWN TILL WE PART WAYS AND THAT BRING ME TO MY THIRD SUPPOSED GROUP. THE ES WHO DONT GIVE A ABOUT GETTING GRADES, (SECRETLY THEY ARE) I WAS TREATED AS THEIR PERSONAL ASSISTANT, OFTEN OUTCASTED AND BULLIED, BUT I JUST WENT WITH IT, SINCE I'M THRISTY FOR A GROUP INTERACTION, I DONT WANT TO BE ALONE, I STARTED TO BE TRUE TO MYSELF THROUGH THEM TILL THE POIKNT THEY FELT EMBARRASED FORE ME YOU PEOPLE!!!! YOU TOLD ME THAT I COULD JUST BE MY ING SELF NOW WHY SHOVE ME AWAY?!?!?! THEN RECENTLY WE HAD A POLITICS CLASS WHERE THEY DO NOT REALLY WANT TO ATTEND, AS FOR ME THE CLASS SECRETARY, I CARED FOR THEM, I JUST CANNOT LET THE THINGS BEING UNFAIR, FAKING THEIR SIGNATURE ALL THE ING TIME SO THAT THEY WONT BE MARKED ABSENT, THIS ! THEN I TEXTED THE ONE I'M MOST CLOSEST TO, I JOKED THAT ALL THE STUDENTS NOT PRESENT WOULD BE DROPPED FROM THE SUBJECT. AND SENT IT TO HER AND TO HER ONLY , THEY OFTEN JOKE ABOUT THIS TOPIC SO I GUESS IT WOULD BE OKAY, BUT HELL I WAS WRONG, THEY WERE MAD AND BROIUGHT OTHER PEOPLE TO THE CASE, AND AS THE CLASS ENDED WHERE THEY SKIPPED HALF-WAY WE ALL MET AT THE CAFETERIA, EVERYONE IGNORED ME LIKE I WAS INVISIBLE. LIKE FUUCCK I JUST CARED FOR YOUR GRADES PEOPLE YOU!!!!!!! I TRIED TO ACT LIKE NOTHING HAPPEN HIDING MY HURT FEELINGS AND SUCH, THEY CONTINUE TO DO SO, AND THEN FINALLY CLASSES WERE OVER, MY FRIEND, THAT IS A MEMEBER OF THE ES GROUP(THE ONE I TEXTED EARLIER) CONFESSED TO ME THAT THEY WERE MAD BECAUSE OF THE JOKE. OKAY I GET IT. MY JOKE WAS A LITTLE RUSH, BUT I DID NOT SENT IT TO THEM SO WHY THEY CARE? SHE SAID BECAUSE THEY WERE GRADE CONCIOUS, IF THEY WERE THEM, THEY SHOULD BE ATTENDING THOSE CLASSES AND NOT ME ALWAYS SACRIFICING FOR EVERYONE AS THEY HAVE FUN!, NOW I MESSAGED THEM ALL IN FACEBOOK BUT BEING A , THEY JUST SEENED MY MESSAGE OH REALLY BEING A NOW HUH? I'M WORRIED AND ANXIOUS ABOUT WHAT WILL HAPPEN IN OUR GYM CLASS TOMORROW I'M INCLUDED IN THEIR GROUP, WHAT WOULD THEY DO TO ME? I'M SCARED ING SCARED. GOD THEM I JUST WANT TO HAVE SOME GROUP OF PEOPLE WHO WOULD CARE AND UNDERSTAND ME I HATE THIS LIFE.
ANY CLUES OR TIPS ON WHAT SHOULD I DO TOMMOROW? BECAUSE I'M REALLY SCARED.
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