SHINee was amazing, despite all the flaws of Hallyu North they were beautiful for the 20 minutes they performed.
After Hallyu North I spent nearly a week at my best friend of 12 years' house. I only see her sometimes once a year. I went from Friday night and just got home today, Wednesday night. My friend has a boyfriend who lives in Michigan and comes down every other week to see ehr for a weekend. He lives 4 hours away. I live 7 hours away. He chose this weekend to come down and I wasn't informed.
So it's bad enough that my friend that I went to the SHINee concert with (my ex boyfriend actually) surprised me with his new potential girlfriend once we got to Toronto (he didn't even tell her I was coming with him and he literally only came to the concert for me), but now I'm being surprised yet again with my best friend's boyfriend staying while I visit.
So I was a third wheel for the entirety of Hallyu North. And I was a third wheel for the entirety of my stay at my friend's place. And when I say third wheel I mean she was texting him on the only day we were alone together. She barely spoke more than 10 words to me. She stayed with him rather than me. I would be alone with her mom and her sister, aimlessly trying to find stuff to do while she hung out with her boyfriend. They go to bed at like 2-7AM and I go to bed at 10 so they'd sleep all day and be alone together all night and I spent the entire time crying alone in the bathroom ro in the bedroom, hearing them laugh together and have fun together. I felt so neglected. Like here I am, spending money to see you, taking time off work, coming down from 7 hours away, seeing you only once a year, and I Feel like I wasted my time. I'm still crying while writing this, like what was the point of coming down. I literally did nothing. I did everything over there that I would have over here at my own place and I'm upset because this is my only vacation time before I start working my second job and it was wasted. Wasted on a friend who rather hang out with her boyfriend that she sees more often than me. And on top of it this might be our last time together before she moves and goes closer to her boyfriend and further away from me. She might move an hour away from her boyfriend and 10 hours away from me, so I'll hve to train my way down to where she lives and pay twice as much as normal. ANd it's upsetting. It's so ing upsetting. On top of it I had cramps the entire time and I'm exhausted after spending nearly 9 hours taking the bus today to get home.
ANyways. Goodnight. I hope everyone had a better time than I did this week.
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