All right, so work has picked up a bit and it seems like everyone has been kind of rushing around lately. I have no idea why. Not to mention, my aunt is having this big 50th birthday bash this weekend and that's contributing to some of the runaround. The other thing is that I actually work like 6 out of seven days of the week and yeah. I end up spending more time on my cell phone and tablet on apps like kakao and line to get my rp mojo going. I am really sorry to everyone that I haven't been around. I wish that I could go to every single person and give this message but yeah. I don't want to leave the site but I don't know what to do.
Actually, I came upon this other roleplay site and I really think that it's helping me find me again, you know? I've been so deep into kpop and roleplaying only kpop artists that I guess I kind of lost myself. I felt like everything was always the same. If that makes any sense. One of my twitter rps, I changed to a girl (which is interesting because I've only ever really had two female twitter rps that I stuck with). Not to mention, she's a western girl. And I gave her an actual background and everything and my eyes are opened. But this website... it's called roleplayersguild.com. If anyone uses it, come find me... I don't know how that works exactly. I'm still new to the site. But, anyway, I've spent more time on there lately when I get the chance because I feel more freedom to be creative, I guess.
Whenever I have a roleplay idea (here) that I really want to do, I get a few people that want to do it with me but it's like they lose the motivation quicker than I do and then I feel bad for coming up with something that wasn't good enough to keep interest. I'm always worried about that here. I've started like four roleplays and they just...I don't know. I actually put in work to promote and everything but. Eh. I mean, I accept that it just wasn't working out. But, anyway, things work differently there than they do but my characters there are really my own. I mean, you can use any character you want and there are just so many options and I really adore it. It's easy to use and keep track of everything. I don't want to leave here but I guess...I don't know. I want to be around here more but things are just so hectic it feels lately. I feel like I'm struggling to keep up with everyone and everything and RPG has become a place where I can just...Chill. I can finally be me through my characters instead of feeling as though I'm fitting a mould or something. I wish I could explain it better.
I'm going to try to be around more but I'm not going to promise that I will be. If you want to reach me, you can always reach me on my apps. If you want (one of) my twitter account(s), let me know. Dude, I have too many. Lol
I really love you guys and the people I've roleplayed with here. I've had some of my friends leave and I've had some that just came and went. I don't think I'm that close to anyone here as much as I used to be and I guess that's another reason I feel kind of lonely here. But I don't know. I have some sorting out to do? I really do adore you guys. Just know that. <3
KakaoTalk: AmbieAssassin or AmbiexAssassin
Line: AmbieAssassin
Kik: AmbieAssassin_
Anywhere else? Just ask me. I can't think of any others at the moment. orz We don't have to roleplay. We can just talk if you like. <3
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