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Just kidding.

No, this isn't actually dedicated to "dissing". I just had something on my mind and felt the need to post it since today seems to be the day of making irrelevancy relevant with indirect blog posts. Don't get me wrong, I mean I hear it's therapeutic, so go for it. We can skip the group session next week if we post a few more; skip for a month if we can comment on at least two others! I actually find all of this amusing... I mean, it's a Tuesday and I'm on a study break, so why not find time to kill? Dance, puppets. There's no contribution, only distribution. Remember that. If anything, this is just a form of "circle jerking" but meh. We all do it. We all get off on it. But the pleasure is temporary and the dignity we risk really isn't worth it.

In reality, no one has the time.
  

But what I really wanted to post about was something that's bothered me for months. I think I, as a person, need a disclaimer. Hell, we all do. Just a few things you need to know before you go in too deep with me... I don't need anyone saying I didn't warn you. Keep stepping after seeing this post and the liability is all on you, guys. You're all great, but really, I gotta be real about this.

①. I'm antisocial.
Surprised? Don't be. I can go weeks without speaking to friends, even if I don't have any beef with them. All for the sake of just picking up where we left off like nothing happened- most likely because nothing DID happen. I bring this up because I don't want people to keep thinking that just because I'm not hitting up your wall/pm/kkt everyday that it clearly means I have it out for you. Nope. 99% of the time, my friends hit ME up. So don't take that personally.

② I'm terrible at responding.
This goes for rp posts in chat rooms, pms, even my OOC wall conversations. I swear this is a hint of ADD somewhere, but I lose interest easily. Sometimes I bite off more than I can chew and just initiate too many conversations at once. It's a thing, guys, a legit thing. I've had to apologize numerous times for it, but really I don't OWE anyone the words out of my mouth. For someone who's got a lot of them, I'm picky about how I use them. I promise I'm not "ignoring". It's all honestly just a nasty habit I haven't shaken since time began.

③ I can't fluff.
This is clearly IC, and it's something I tell people all the time when we plot, but apparently it's surprising? I mean, don't get me wrong. I've got moments wherein I feel like being sweet and just loving people down but... For a plot? How really is that even a genre? Don't ever come to me wanting a plotted hug from my charries... Not unless you wanna get the hug as gunshots ring above our heads or the hug similar to what Jungkook gave an inebriated Yoongi in "Run". I love angst and drama... I like action and violence, keeping things exciting and unpredictable, even in non-AU's where you don't normally see that. I can get love and kisses in reality by just stepping out of my house. On RPR, I want a break from that. I want something unique.

④ My characters are gentlemen.
This is something I've wanted to get off my chest since I've joined RPR. My characters are flirts, but more than anything they know how to treat a female. I'm a 99% rper, I can guarantee you that my characters will most likely go for males. BUT that doesn't mean I shrink at the sight of s. I love girls, both OOC and IC. I think they're refreshing and adorable, and it's why I love all-oriented rps more than -only ones. Girls make things exciting, and honestly I can see their dilemma (since I'm a girl in real life????). So for that, I treat them like princesses. My charries will open doors for you. My charries will call you "gorgeous". My charries will greet you everytime you so much as breathe in the same room as them. It's in my nature to make people feel good, and it extends all the more to precious females. But I've had an issue lately with people differentiating that from my characters legitimately LIKING theirs... So lemme just clarify. You'll know my character likes yours if he SAYS he does. You'll know if he blushes, if he goes out of his way to admire you. You'll know you've broken him down when he outright says that he's coming for you. Not in the "Taken" way but not really in the "swiggity swooty" way either. Just trust me, when my characters crush (which isn't often at all--- I'm not about romance in RPR and you can tell by the very few official relationships here that I've been in) they crush hard... You'll know if you're the one. Though is my forte, I started out rping only males in straight relationships. I was that token white boy in a Hallmark romance card. I was the Jaejoong to someone's Amber in AFF, the Seokjin to a Naeun. Just two years ago, I couldn't imagine roleplaying same- relationships. It's not beyond me, guys... It's just a preference these days. If you really think my characters can't do these things, then all you're telling me is that I can't be nice to you without risking a broken heart. THIS IS THE DISCLAIMER. I'm a heartbreaker without meaning to be. If you can't handle how a good guy should treat you, then it's not the time for love just yet...

⑤ I'm a jerk.
Don't fight me on this. I've become keenly aware of it after I recovered from 2015, the year my proverbial hit the fan. Time hardens people, experiences make them less prone to giving any s. I'm more outspoken now than I was when I was Fantascape. I'm condescending and openly so. I love people, love being welcoming and adoring those around me. But I believe in the prospect of tough love, especially to those I'm closest to. If I'm not insulting you on the daily (only to turn around and kiss the oo), we aren't that in just yet. If we've known each other for at least a good year and I still haven't made a single correction towards you or gotten into a scrap with you (no matter how small), we aren't on the best terms yet. We're still acquaintances. I've gotten comfortable with letting down facades. It's nice to get feedback, it's why I need people to chew me out and tell me I'm being a or that what I've done is wrong. It molds me, shapes me so I don't pull the same stunts twice... So don't get offended when I offer the same criticisms. If I don't feel comfortable being honest with you, I'm not comfortable with you.

No but seriously, it's not that crucial. Leave me alone. I'm gonna do what I want and you'll do the same, as is such with autonomy. If you're bothered, don't rp with me. Don't even friend me. Save yourself early in.

This turned out to be so much longer than I thought. I swear, you don't have to even skim this... But if you come at me because you think I'm doing any of these things, I'd like to think that all I have to do is refer you to this blog.

You may now get back to your regularly scheduled -fest. Please have a blessed day and remember what I said in my blog #2034834302834 (okno)...

There are more things in life to worry about...

Do you. Have fun.

And remember those around you.