Voices calling

I have a dream every night, that wakes me up. Feeling empty, one would hate the future that I see. It's not like I want it, but it fallows me, like somethings giving me away. Maybe I do need so help.... It's like a blackout, all so clear, standing face to face with everything I fear. It's leaving me nothing else to do, I know this isn't me, this is everything but true. It's hard to believe this right now, but it's like I can't wake up. It's haunting, to the core, what I'm I putting my self through? The voices of howls sing at night, sing ITS WAR ON OUR ENEMIES! It's not like its really a voice in my head, I hear it outside my head but sometimes I feel it inside. I feel the power pulsing at night, crying and screaming to leave. I feel weak, but one last act of glory from inside, timldy mutters then boldly  yells out ' no one run, our hearts will beat faster, no body makes it out alive. We're going for the leader. Let you self out, can you feel them call for you?! No, you'll never be alone! You feel us with you, so never think that your alone! In converting arms we are all brother and sister under sun or moon.' 

I feel insane..... No amount of help will make this go away, I fell like I could tell if it would. During the day, I must say , it's much easier to ignor or drowned out. Meh...... I guess no more deep sleeping for me anymore.