i could remember clearly the day i stumbled upon the roleplaying world. august 5 2014 was the day i met rpr. i had accidentally came across this amazing website though a link at the footer of aff. it all seemed so new to me and i had absolutely no idea what roleplaying was or what the website was even about.
i made my first move by looking around in a roleplay, featured in the 'daily random featured roleplay'. all i saw was lots and lots of places' names. it was a school-themed au rp. but i had no idea what au was or anything. i saw a masterlist, and there were lots and lots of kpop idols available. i dont remember who i joined as, but i remember clearly that i had no idea that i have to read the rules and get the form. i remembered writing just 'i really like this character, please let me join' as i had no idea what it requires for me to join. i thought that sincerity was enough. two hours later, i received a wall post from the owner of the rp telling me to 'read the rules and apply with the application form'. she sounded really rude but i just thought like it was my problem not hers and went on asking her where to get the application form. surprisingly, she told me that i had to look in the rules and that was how i joined my first rp.
it wasn't easy though. i remembered admiring people who made 'friends', because i had no idea how and i was far too shy to do it. i posted messages in rooms but no one replied. so i looked at how others wrote stuffs, and that was how i learnt to use the '/' to tell that you're talking about an action.
soon, i joined the second rpr. its still alive now, i think. i remembered clearly that i joined as bomi. i began sending out greetings and all, and i was finally getting the hang of rping. i made friends, and i learnt that we should not be so serious in talking and everyone was busy cracking jokes at that time.
there came the au rps. i never knew what they stood for and what they meant. until one day, a kind rper explained that au is 'alternate universe' and it meant that we are not idols in it, and nonau is just the opposite. there were lots and lots of au rps in 2014. supernatural au, school au, company au...you name it, they have it. i remember going on a rp spree, and the most characters i ever had at the same time was 17, and i had a great time talking in all of them.
then came my first love, first heartbreak. i have never dated in real life so i was excited that i was finally 'dating'. i was happy enough to be able to imagine the whole thing rather than really having to be dating in real life. i was glad to have met my first rp lover, and we're still together now (you know exactly who you are). apart from that, i've 'dated' quite a lot of people, from exo, bts and more, but never my ultimate bias, jungkook. i remembered there was chanyeol, v, jimin, xiumin, hayoung and a few others. but that was the past.
the best things back then were probably character profiles. i remembered that i had always been really happy and excited whenever i see someone put my character's name or picture up on their 'friends' section. the best thing probably is, to see your name in lots of people's profiles. that rarely happens now, does it? or is it just that i couldn't just talk as funny or as good as the past?
i encouraged a few of my kpop friends to join rpr. i even asked them if they have a great imagination where i could send you a message using another person's name and you could imagine that its the real jungkook. a lot of them said that they could, but none of them lasted on rpr for more than a week. after giving up on getting people to join rpr, i went on being a loner on rpr.
there were lots of rps to join back in the 2014 and mid-2015, but i went on a hiatus of just 3 months. and when i was back, everything changed.
ranging from the logo and website to the style of rps, everything was different and it was like getting to know rpr all over again.
i tried joining rps, but it was never the same. in the past, rpers all talked together, and there weren't like any groups/gangs formed. although you couldn't say exactly that there are groups now, its just the fact that if you weren't cool, then you could't mix in, no matter how hard you try. back then, all i ever had to do was to say 'hi' or '/rolls in' and people would start talking.
and now, i only had 5 characters. it felt as though i had lost my muse for rpr or something. i never thought that i could ever get bored of rpr - dont get me wrong, im not bored of it yet - its just that im tired of the new way of rping. i joined back in 2014, even if i wasn't in the first batch of rpers or anything, but i missed the way we used to talk. i missed the way it was. i missed how it used to be. i missed how rps get to be any theme and still people would join. i missed how people wouldnt look at how the title was written to choose whether to join or not. i missed how people wouldn't care about c&p greetings. heck, how else are we even supposed to start a greeting? there's so many idols out there, it's impossible for us to do some research for each and every idol to come up with something 'original'. im sorry if this offended you, but i just- i just dont know what to say about it.
i really hope that we could bring back the 14's way of rping. its not the fact that it was back when i started, its just the fact that they were memories. my memories. rpr has helped me through the ups and downs of my life. it has not only kept entertained, but it has also helped me to get to know more friends, and also made me feel really happy. whenever i felt upset, rpr was the only thing which cheered me up. i could also say that, rpr is where most of my happiest memories are stored in.
thank for reading this. im sorry if i wasted your time or bored you out or smtg. i just felt like i needed to talk- more like- i needed someone to talk to ;;
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