Knowing that everything you're doing is ridiculous (like searching for validation, crying, not being able to sleep, thinking too much, not leaving the house, answering the phone, talking to people cuz of anxiety) and still doing it anyway because you can't control it. I am literally like this right now. I have managed my anxiety till I lost my job last week. I was offered a job at an interview I went to but I got a job interview for anotehr job the day after that I want more.
I'm supposed to start training tomorrow for the first job but the second job, the manager ( I called her back today) said I'm basically hired, we just need the official reply from human resources, but now I'm torn between
1) starting the first job and quitting a week in after I get my answer from the second job
2) asking to post-pone my training at the first job
and no matter what way I look at it, I'll be anxious. And sobbing. And I don't know what to do.
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