well i finally got a computer. although, i dont have access to wifi, just mobile hotspot
soooooo, i guess im gonna be more active around rpr now? i have a measly one character so I may be joining other places, or if my muse continues to be like it has been, maybe i won't idK.
i want to give out an apology for the last few months. i feel like i've become distant to a lot of my friends, and its not because i want to, it's because i haven't had ample means to get on here or kkt very often (since i've been trapped on mobile and occasionally, with no data, and always with no wifi) . it's sad to see blog posts pass by of my old friend groups, leaving me out of course because i haven't been around. on top of seeing so many sad friends losing their way and me not having the means to help them. i feel like im hella out of the loop. no one talks to me anymore but i dont blame them because i stop responding due to technical difficulties on my end or school. also, everyone suddenly changed their un's and now i dont know who is who anymore.
i have this fear that once i reach out to my old friends (i've tried every now and again) i won't be able to grasp their attention for very long, or will continue to lack importance in everyone's lives. everyone's made new confidants, friends, and family and im that one kid who studied abroad for two years and came back with everyone forgetting my name so they've resorted to accidentally calling me by the dogs name, and then also act excited to see me back but turn their backs once their new best friend steps in the room. i mean even when people did consider me a best/good friend, i was never the numba one so how's it goNNA BE NOWWWW.
and am i missing something or is everything now a days. but at least my girl yuri is getting out there too
rps are getting more creative but as soon as I click to see more its that dreaded ' only' sign
im looking for something to bring my muse back. something that doesn't require me to be hella active and to rub against everyone in the chatroom constantly like a cat in heat, jUST to get a rp request accepted or to make friends.
on an ending note, i just had an international relations exam and i knew every single ing thing on that moTHERER I WAS SO PROUD. but the professor is a hard grader, so im hoping i conveyed my answers in the way he's looking for.
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