lol yea okay basically this is just me needing an outlet of some sort ???/?
i've been keeping to myself a lot lately and that means i'm gonna start overthinking and emo kiwi is no bueno so imma just type away until i feel better
(or until my mom comes in and starts yelling h a h) oh would you look at that she came in and started yelling right when i finished typing that :D
i don't know why but i stopped taking my meds last week
i've been so out of it these past few days what with all this stress and anxiety and it's all blah so i'm just-- c':
but i started taking them again today which means yAY AWESOME MOOD SWINGS HURRAH
crap i hate the side effects of these meds so much i apologize in advance if i start acting all weird or whatever
but tbh when am i not acting weird
i was looking back over my old private/pm rps and it just hit me that the last time i actually seriously rped was exactly one year ago
i started a private rp with one of my friends and honestly it was one of my favorite ones and it was so fjhnujdnfbrehknv
but then life happened and blah. i miss actual detailed rping like that, i don't do it much anymore. i don't really do any kind of rping anymore tbh -
probably because you a lazy piece of , kiwi
truuuuuueeeeee
i don't know if i say it enough but i really truly love you guys so much
it hurts my heart how much i treasure each. and. every. single. one. of. you.
and yea whatever i know i say this a lot but honestly it's so true
you people mean the world to me and i don't know what i'd do if i lost any of you guys as my friends
well now i'm crying DAMMIT this is not how i wanted this to go
and yea i know people come and go, things change, people change
but there are some you just hope will be forever friends because
because forever friends are awesome
i mean, i've had people that i've been so close to in the past either just disappear because of life, which happens
and other where we've drifted apart because---- well, let's not get into those toxic people. let's keep these tears happy tears for now c':
BUT THEN THERE ARE ALWAYS NEW FRIENDS YOU MAKE THAT JUST BRING PURE UTTER HAPPINESS INTO YOUR LIFE AND YOU CAN'T IMAGINE YOUR LIFE WITHOUT THEM points at that one person
and there are those that you've kinda known for a long time but were never really close with until recent happenings p oints at that other one person
and then there are those that are just wonderful and you love them so much and you're just like 'why are you friends with me you can do so much better man i ' pOINST AT EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU AAAAAAAAAAH
ugh oh my god it's like 7am right now but my body is still in chicago time which is nearly midnight
and i'm so gosh darn tired -
but then when have i ever had a normal sleep schedule. i'm just a l w a y s tired.
wow okay this is getting long
no one's gonna read this anyways lmao
oh well i'm already starting to feel kinda better maybe idk
i got my kkt to work again omg yay
i think i just had to connect to a different wifi thingy so that it would work
but it's still being yucky on my laptop but that doesn't matter because i never really use my laptop for kkt anyways
is day6 even real what the frick frack snick snack how is such perfection even allowed to EXIST
lol funny story so we were at breakfast the other day and my dad just looks at me like
'i noticed that we like to eat the same kinds of food for breakfast. i'm getting to know you better. this is nice'
and i was just :) yeeeaaaa cool uhm two decades of you being my fAtHeR and now you notice stuff like this but cool i guess
i mean it's nice you finally got around to noticing me and all but it's when we're kinda forced to interact and all because we're stuck together for two weeks so it's ????????
idk man, idk
LET'S GET BACK TO DAY6
oh wait dear god let's not get back to day6 i'm going to start crying again
my emotions are a mess
I MISS TOPP DOGG
cries loudly i'm b y e
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