Hello~ (RL update)

So yeah i know i've been on and off for a while and i still need to reply to people on rpr. 

And i will. 

I just wanted to tell you real life got in the way, my head is so full of all the stuff that is going on right now. and i really want to rp to just kind of calm myself down, but i find myself wanting to reply and having a hard time focusing on it because my head is so full. It doesn't really help XD. I try, and i will reply. Be it a little late because i just fall in and out of muse at the moment. 

I just got my hands full with things like finding a good job, which is difficult with my situation, let's just say i can't work like normal people do. Long story, not going to dive into that now.

Besides that i got my education to finish. after the summer just six more months and i'm finally done so that will improve my chances at a good job, be it that i will still need special circumstances because... reasons. 

Next to that i had my grandaunt (grandma's sister) pass away just before easter. and though that is a while ago and i'm over it, sometimes it still just won't settle in my mind that i lost her. The reason for that is because after easter, i got the news that my older sister has a disease that effects the use of her muscles. over time, they don't know how long it's going to take or how fast it will spread but... over time she will lose strength in all her muscles and she will be in pain if she uses her body too much. 

That was quite the blow for me. Next to that, my aunt, (my mom's sister) has been diagnosed with skin cancer. 

now that's just the top of the pile of what is going on in my life and what my head is full with, but those are the biggest issues i'm dealing with right now.

Honestly, i'm okay, just very tired. but okay. I'm dealing. and i'm talking to people and it's going to be okay. I'm calm and i just take one thing at the time and work through it.

It just makes me lose focus on things i'm working on. I'm sure my head will be calmer given time. When i've had the chance to properly digest all the information and give it all a proper place. 

But for now i'm just out of it. So in advance, i'm sorry if my replies are slow, and i don't want anyone to think that i don't want to rp anymore. I just have a lot on my mind. I want to rp, very much in fact, but i have trouble focusing every now and then. And i don't want to give less to the rps then 100% so it may take a bit longer. 

So please bare with me a little and give me a chance. I'll do my best. 

Zero