Hello my darling brat, this is Rap Mon hyung talking to you through letters and words that can not always possess the amount of feeling that is buried deep within me ready to burst out and engulf your being in a hug. a hold that should be bigger and better and warmer than anyone else's. you are mine, you had always been mine to begin with and even if you dare to slap this crooked heart of mine away; i shall gather its remaining pieces, pour it into a bottle and send it to ocean towards your direction. I hope each day a flower crawls up to your lips to seek me, i hope my name is the perfect scent you breath in, and i hope im the first arm you throw yourself into. in me nothing will be extinguished or forgotten, my love feeds on your love, and as long as you breath; this love shall go on. Now you little brat, stop exhausting your self, and even if you are exhausted, come to monnie to give you hugs and kisses. dont beat yourself up for things, beat hyung up while i smother you with hugs and kisses. and if you go bored, we can go adopt a lil chubby baby who will pee on us on daily basis. you have to change him though- we'll take turns in cleaning the poop part. also, lets go to beach one of these days, I can't cook for so lets skip on the whole picnic sandwhich thing and just go for fruits and fast food- im sure it will taste good in the beach specially late at night. i'll bring my minion blanket too- its yellow and i bought it a bit ago- forgive hyung though, he is gonna wake you up at three a.m. and throw you in the car cause we need to go pick blueberries together. you can sleep on my lap while we are on the way as long as hyung get a few kisses. then we can cuddle under a tree and i will feed you blueberries- we can rent a cute room late at night and just sleep together on the floor and then return to all the flashing cameras and stuff. you know what would be cute to do? sleeping in a tree house with a smol lamps, pillows and blankets all over its place. Oh- we should definitely get cotton candy though. I dont think climbing would be the best date idea i might trip on air, you dont want hyung to break something again do you- now am i getting ahead of myself? no idea but well i just felt like leaving a message for you love. Iloveyou,haveaniceday<3.

2. Notes shall be added to this, cause this is our memory diary. You know, i love you claim me. i love how much of a teasing brat you are. and i absolutely love how you lose your over me. cause even if i dont show you, even if i'm emotionally collected in the image; im a mess. im a mess who is just a fool in love and this fool shall stay a fool for you. I love you, and i shall say this word forever even if you get triggered by it- youknowiloveyouhahaha<3 

It always happens, yet the fresh feeling in my chest whenever i see you does not get old. its like a constant squeeze,an ache only you can get rid of. its a simple kiss of your rosy lips, a little playful bite first thing in the morning and your head on my lap with my fingers sprawled between those soft locks of yours that gets rid of this ache. its you, filling in the puzzle, the gap that is my heart. i must not be the best of all, i must not 'have it all' like the prince of the fairy tails in your mind, but i shall make your life a fairy tail. i will love you till the day my last breath escapes me, and i shall never let go of your hand, the hand that fits perfectly into mine. the days shall never decrease, even if its a late night cuddle on top of our rooftop in the middle of a sleepless night when exhaustion is that one thing keeping us both awake. 
I love you, and i say those words with no fear. I love you, and you know the love i own in my heart for you. if you have ever pressed that precious head of yours against my chest to hear the messy beat; you should know by now that this mess is all caused by you. 
such a lovely mess.
you remember right? remmber how i said i have a list of dates? there are almost 300 in it now, 300 dates waiting for us and i am adding to it daily but you know we have to start with blueberry picking cause hyung wants blueberries and a dirty kookie to take care of. 
You know im the jealous type right? so dont squeeze my heart with that feeling, wreck me but dont look the other way. look at me cause all i'll be looking at for the rest of my life is you.

 

Of course, i will add more to this little note here. this is just the start, and the diary of our memories shall go on and on...