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"Here's to never growing up."

TakaJuNew

"I write what I feel, I never worry what others think."

For as long as I can remember, writing has always been my outlet for anything. From problems with friends and family, to school, to relationships, and heck, even church. Nothing in this world can ever stop me from writing what I really want to write. Nothing, at all. I primarily write on fanfiction.net and mostly about Vampire Academy, but I kind of want to stop because many people have been telling me what they want in my story... Like, heck will I let my stories that I've been writing for so long to be turn into something someone else wants! The only time I will do that is in the shop I'm working at that is on Asianfanfics (Idols Dream Story Shop). I still write on that site,but I've moved to Mibba, instead.

"I'm coming out and I'm going to be myself."

From what I've heard, I've had a complicated life even before I was born. I'm one of those special babies that supposedly died in the womb, but here I am alive. Honestly, I think the first two years of life for me were the easiest. When I was almost three, my dad left my mom and I for another woman. I didn't talk to my dad again; not until I was six at least and that was because I had a new baby sister. I wasn't very happy, honestly. It didn't make sense to me how come I lost my dad, yet my sister still had him. Another two years passed and my grandmother died. She had cancer and was suffering a lot, so maybe it's good she doesn't suffer anymore.The only thing I regret is being in the room with her when she passed... It's hard, you know, to see someone you love die. After that, I don't know, something in me turned into stone and I just couldn't feel anything anymore. It wasn't actually until recently that I started to feel again. I met this guy named Liam on a site called MakeChat. Yes, it was a chat site, yes it was stupid, but hey, we're all on a RP site. Haha. Anyway, he and I got to know each other and honestly, I felt myself open up to him in ways that I never opened to someone before. He irritated me, made me sad, made me mad, but I still was happy with him, despite all that. I guess that was when I fell in love with him;when he was able to make me feel all of that at once. We dated over the summer and we were happy! Even though there were problems, we were still happy even though we talked about only once a week once school started.But, one day, this girl named Haley, who started getting closer to him, caused trouble between us. We started fighting, and he decided that may be it wasn't best for us to stay together, especially since we were so unstable. I was crushed! It hurt! Even though he did it for me, it hurt! After that, I started dating a lot of guys after him, flaunting it in his face, which hurt him. . .It hurt me to do it too, but a part of me wanted him to hurt because I was hurting over him breaking my heart. It wasn't until after I learned he had a new girlfriend that I realized that it didn't matter if we were together, as long as he was happy, I was too. For the first time in years, I broke down and cried for days, letting that sink in. Now, to the present. I just got out of my first real relationship ever since Liam,I have a new baby sister, but this one is "special," and I graduated high school! It was going good until Liam just so happen to tell me that he and his girlfriend broke up, saying they both didn't want to work out their relationship. At first, I was shocked. He was happy with her and poof! Nothing. Now, he and I got closer and closer, but... there's hesitance. He knows how I feel about him, but even then, we're playing ball with our feelings, just hiting it back and forth, neither of us just letting our guards down. Who knew that Love is weird even if you're not face-to-face?

"There are no boundaries when it comes to love."

[heart is taken;but not in a relationship] [straight] [Liam] [06/17/12]

Liam, it's hard to say how I really feel about you. Honestly, I'm very sorry about how we broke up and I just want you to know that it was my fault. Sure, you were the one who said it wouldn't work out and you broke up with me because you thought it was best, but I still should have tried to work harder you and for us. I'm sorry that only now I say how I feel after we've dated other people and loved other people, but please know that no matter who I'm with, it'll always be you and I will always try to do my best to get your heart back. But, if you don't want me to feel that way for you anymore, then I'll just let you go. Your happiness is all that matters to me and like how you sacrificed yours thinking it was best for me, I will do the same, just so I know you're happy. That's all Love is about, right? Keeping the person who holds your heart happy. I'm glad my heart chose you out of all 7 billion people in this world.

"Let's cherish the life we have together."

Liam . Dana . Issa . Adri . Arie . Missa . Myra . Yuki . Tiana . Abhi . Yash . Miyu . Nassie . Kibol . Lobie . Lexie . In-Ha

mood → 012345 // eargasm → Come back... Be here by Taylor Swift ☁ // eyecandy → Liam ☁ // craving → Ice Cream // thoughts → Love will find a way~

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