° HOUSE 001 - BAEKHYUN & JONGIN.

@jongin kim /after a few hours of spending my time mostly with chanyeol and jongdae, we finally made home with the attempt of them supporting each side of mine; taking off your shoes as soon as we arrived and only to limping towards the laundry room to grab an extra blanket for me to sleep on the couch, knowing that i will you anger you more once i get myself to sleep on the side of my bed
/both chanyeol and jongdae greeted me a 'good night' before left me alone on the living room as they went to their respective assign room and eventually brave myself from going inside of our shared room not to sleep on my bed, rather just grab my sleepwear and made my way back right after i sighed at your sleeping figure, mumbling how sorry i was as soon as i recalled you saying that i shattered your heart by the way for being too weak

@jongin kim /wasn't even surprised on how you accuse me anymore since i've seen you did that towards yifan and luhan before and clearly i'm going to be your next target before zitao's to get back to korea. now i know on why yifan and luhan telling me this in the past, one of the reason they leave is that you're treating them like a some kind of puppet and never actually cared about them whether they work hard or not -it sadden me to think about it on how selfish you are that made us four to feel unwanted asking why of all this time taking your sides rather than others
yes! i'm not different from yifan, luhan, and zitao what's your problem? we know how it feels unwanted by you! selfish bastard
/muttering the last sentence to myself right after you left, still standing there against the floor as i tried to recollect myself; puffing my cheeks as i shake my head to actually prevent myself from being sad since probably no one could raise my mood. quickly limping my way outside the restroom where i spot the manager in front of the hallway while giving me a knowing look, sighing as i nod my head because at last, you becoming selfish yet again
/went back to the waiting room silently as i spot chanyeol and chen looking at me with a questioning look, obviously confused that i acted quiet yet didn't do or greet them and just let my ankle to be treated by the person on duty

@jongin kim /after i get off the stage with the help of joonmyeon and yixing, someone - rather a familiar figure come and gripped my forearm and before i comprehending what just happening to me, the image of the familiar person is in front of me
/let out a small groan when my back hit the cold and disgusting wall because of the your violent shove and can't help but just getting worried of myself, afraid that you will beat me up because of the earlier event but since i'm hardheaded person and have no fear i decided to talk down to you, showing where your place is
why are you relying on me every time and just thinking that i'm fine when you clearly seen me working my best until i broke my ankle? who's the selfish one actually? rather be worried about the members health, you only cared about how the performance ends up
also, you cannot expect me for being like you- okay, you can performed when you hurt your hips but i can't even perform like you do because i'm not ing kim jongin. even so if i joined you all on the stage in the next day exo will lose another member. don't you see on what the reason yifan and luhan left? be grateful that sm didn't confirmed about zitao's leaving

beep.