CITY

@Park Jimin /shakes my head and keep walking as I talk/ no thanks. I know you mean well but I just really need to be alone. Before I get angry again just /sighs and glances at you/ go home or to the chicken store or whatever. Just don`t show your face for a while I`m tired /walks a bit faster to avoid you keep following me/

@Jeon Jungkook oh... /clench the medicine in a fist/ b-but... whike you like that don't you at least need someone to accompany... some says two is better than one, I won't say anything I just walk far away at least let me follow you until you safely arrive to your room... I don't want any stranger carry you in case you faint ,besides you don't look so well /I said with a soft tone maybe it will lessen the tense/ you won't even notice me

@Park Jimin /holds into my thumping chest as I try to think of things i like, frowns when there`s a shadow cast on me as I can feel it even with my eyes close, slowly open up my eyes and scowls when I see you, looks away and just listen to you quietly, glances at the pills and water before letting out a sigh/ I cannot take any pill hyung. that can cause a lot worst and an addiction. Doctor tells me to try solving it without any medicine as I`m getting better each day /takes the water bottle and stands up with shaky legs as I just regain my stability/ please go away. I really don`t want to talk to you or anyone right now. Just- /thinks of a better words to say but ends up cutting it, makes my way to the dorm with my head hangs low, not really having the confidence to meet anyone`s eyes/

@Jeon Jungkook /watch you run as your back turns facing the opposite direction and my mouth let out a sigh when I notice your react from my tease earlier/ what have I've done? /ruffles my hair as I quickly run to wards your direction but stop when I saw a mini market, I run in the mini market to buy some calm pill and a bottle of wate, I continue to search for you when a figure like yours leaning agaisnt wall while gasping for air I stop and walk slowly towards you and stop away a couple of step from you/ I'm sorry... I won't do it again /I said as soft as I can like I'm speaking to a scare little puppy/ will you forgive your hyung /still a steps away from you as I try to give the pill and water/

@Jeon Wonwoo /tilt my head in confuse/ you took a train to came here? last time I've checked this place is very close to out college... where the hell did you came from? /chuckles at your tardiness/ anyway let's drop that... /shrug/ let's go to that fountain where's there are a lot of people /point at the said place as I grab hand to loss in these crowds/

@Park Jimin /fists my hand trying to not blow up with all the people keep looking/ maybe you are not my best friend anymore . Just because my anxiety is better doesn`t mean I`m fine being humiliated like that! /feels myself shaking with all the bad feelings comes crashing down, feels myself at peak once again/ how stupid are you to think about being gay at this ing-! never mind you never understand /leaves you without giving a whatever you shouts; once I found a small dark alley I sneak in and lean myself against the wall, try to regulate my breathing by taking deep breath while counting in my head/

@Park Jimin Jimin, I’m so sorry I’m late!
[I blow out a heavy breath, only to breathe in another seconds after, in an attempt to catch my breath]
I missed my train here, I’m so sorry.

@Jeon Wonwoo wonwoo~~ let's go to the park /curve my hands around my mouth seeking for you ignoringbthe crowd/ where is he? /whisper to myself as look around while glance at the watch on my wrist/

@Jeon Jungkook /tries to maintain my stability so that I don't fall on the dirty road/ woah calm down kookie... I'm your hyung and your bestfriend don't you think its a little... no I mean A LOT of harsh to push me like that /at first tried to feel sad by then I just felt a burst of anger flowing out of me/ wtf you mean by abnormality? I like guys too /glance the crowd but shrug it off since I don't really care what others think/ fine go home!... you need to think about what you did to me today! while you're at it take you med /shout to you as you run away/ am I going a little bit overboard /ruffles my head hard and growls to myself as I kick the air in anger/

@Park Jimin /my panic and angers starts to grow clouding my judgement when you tease me making me pushes you away quite harshly/ what the dude! I told you to ing cut the crap! /my breathe starts to get irregular as I spout things I didn`t mean/ just because you are shameless that doesn`t mean I am too! stop treating my ing abnormality as a joke. It`s not funny. I-I`m going home just.. you man /mumbles as my paranoia makes me feel like everyone is watching and judging me, turns around and starts to run as face as I could thinking of a quiet place to calm myself down, starts to get more frantic as everything seems too much for me/

@Jeon Jungkook /laugh happily at your reaction/ awww... oppa keep avoiding me that's way~ /I added a more oil to a burning flame as I find it fun to make you nervous/ next time I'll bring a sign saying "his not my boyfriend", will you be satisfied? /elbow your side playfully then we saw the chicken store right pass some more crowd/

@Park Jimin /gets more uncomfortable when you come to me, nearly flinches when you drags me, pulls away and fiddles with the hem of my shirt/ stop doing that! you know I hate when people look at me like that! /mumbles in a nervous voice, gives a few space between us as I try to control my breathing to avoid panic attacks/

@Jeon Jungkook /I notice you walk slower/ i see your trying to avoid me /I talk to myself quietly still trying to avoid getting a visit to a mental hospital, run towards you and link our arms together dragging you as my stomach starts to grumbles living a smirk on my face/ yup you have this kind of hyung /smiles sweetly at you/

@Park Jimin who the is this guy.. I don`t know him /mumbles under my breathe and walks slower not really wanting people to know its me when they all looks at you weirdly/

@Jeon Jungkook I agree~ / nod my head a couole of times/ hurry up jeon jungkook! /shout from afar as I look towards you pointing and grins to myself/

@Park Jimin more of the fried chicken. I think oily food gives me the best satisfaction when I`m bummed /nods my head and my lips as I think of it/ I know hyung what I mean later is tomorrow /tries hard not to face palm myself in crowded place, walks behinds a few steps away to act like I don`t know you/ please stop that /mumbles tiredly/

@Jeon Jungkook /shift my eyes towards you as I feel a tug on my sleeve/ ok~ let's order half marinate and half fried /smiles happily with the though of stuffing my dearest stomach/ not later tomorrow... /stuff my phone back into my pocket as I start to skip my way happily to the chicken store/ I think about that later... I'm starting to feel very hungry

@Park Jimin /pauses and tugs your sleeve/ if so then let`s go to the fried chicken store instead! the beer usually a bit more cheaper /tilts my head and starts walking the opposite direction/ you mean you will go somewhere later on? /not really understand what you try to say but nods my head anyway out of politeness/ okay then. Good luck with that

@Jeon Jungkook /shift our direction to the nearest bar/ I tingling for chicken and beer... are you in? /showns a guesture of cheer and gulp down as I suggest the idea/ tomorrow I kind want to go for some where but i haven't figure out where to go yet? /glance at you/ just feels like sometime need to feel myself with emotion so I could make up some move for the exam and then I could finally move on to learning b-boy /pulls out my phone to search for place or idea on where to go/

@Park Jimin /shakes my head/ it`s okay~ I mean I still think about it in my the back of my head. It`s those things you just have to be super aware of /hums and moves lazily/ I hate myself right now but yeah let`s get something to get our mind of that s

@Jeon Jungkook /chuckles as I rubs my nape/ Sorry kookie... let's leave the work talk there and let our mind float free but... to be honest with I kind of feel like for some alchohol too... feeling tipsy might make us feel free for awhile /trying to persuade you to go to bar or someplace similar/

@Nakamoto Yuta sure. you keep updating me each day you successfully went through without it

@Jeon Jungkook Could you.....see how long I can go without

@Nakamoto Yuta hmm. If you want me to keep tab /nods my head/

@Jeon Jungkook I will tell you okay

@Nakamoto Yuta still.. I can`t help but feel worried /mumbles under my breath/

@Jeon Jungkook my doctors watches over me.........I will be okay......

@Nakamoto Yuta /sighs in relief/ but still.. I hope it`s not an addiction. i`m worried for your health /pouts as I think of the bad consequences/

@Jeon Jungkook No ,I still live with my mother.......don't worry

@Nakamoto Yuta holy crap! you don`t live in the dorm right? My head will be cut off if they knew I don`t prevent a student bringing illegal s as serious as drug