⠀⠀forest of sko

@taehyung kim. Every strike you throw at me hit close to home and hurt beyond words, but it's okay, I know you're a changed man and you're no longer the sweet person I met years ago- no. You're dark and snide, conniving even and there's no way I could even take to heart your words, when they're not even---based on anything but cruelty and harshness, it's the life you live now as you so 'nicely' explained and it's up to me to accept it. However, every time you play all angry and mean and become the you want to portray, the sadness comes swirling back in those orbs of yours, glistening at me and aching at me, tugging at the resolve left within me that still cries for you and yearn for the old you and knowing that he's buried deep within and there, the slap to my face comes yet again when you keep throwing the fact that your father took advantage of my broken state and manipulated me into doing something I regret so much, even up till this day. I do not even have the strength or will to hold it against you, because you're a broken kid still and I would never even dream of hurting you anymore than apparently I already did- without even intending to, but not like you give a damn anyways in believing me or giving me a second chance. "Hate me all you want- but I still see the sadness in your eyes, and more so than see what your eyes are so willing to tell, I feel it from your very essence, whether it's demonic and brutal and vile- all well and fine, but I'm not stupid, I know what I know and feel and I trust my gut's instinct at the end of the day. If you want to hate me, go right ahead, but I'm not giving up on you or us Kim Taehyung. Enjoy your night, I'd leave you be now, seeing as this is getting nowhere, clearly." I whisper almost sadly, caressing the harshness of the tree, imagining it's your hand as I sigh and push myself away from the tree.

@somin jeon. (unu he is angst, i warned smh)

i lean my head on the tree, closing my eyes as i hear your words, honestly not very touched by them as for some reason i've grown quite apathetic after this whole transformation that didn't exactly take long. ''i never believed a word he said because from the moment he treated me like i was the reason my mom died, i understood he would step over anyone to get what he wanted, me included'' i call out, my lips as i think back over everything i went through. ''you're part of sko, too, i can't believe a word you said, how easy it was for you to believe someone who hurt me so bad. like i said, you really didn't know me. and you never will, if you claim stuff about me like that. that's not even on me, it's on you because no matter how ed up i was, i based my feelings off what you gave me and that night you gave me something to work on. and i became like this. but don't take full credit, my father did most of the work.'' kicks out my feet, sadly smiling as i'm not even mad anymore, simply drowned in the sadness i can't seem to erase anymore. ''it's not like i need anybody to be by my side. it's been years ever since i turned into the demon i am today, it's been years ever since i held any sort of conversations with whomever, and i was doing fine. i had my shadows, they were enough.'' i simply answer you, taking in a deep breath as i open my eyes and look up to the sky peeking in between the trees. ''i honestly only need myself to be around. one day everyone will be gone anyway, i've been granted eternity, much to my dismay. so do you really think i want to go back to being the little angel everyone was so fond of? i don't want to have friends knowing they'll leave me too. i've learnt that hate is so much better than love, and i'm doing perfect like this so let me hate you.'' i finish, breathing out quietly before nodding a couple times, looking down at the floor quietly. ''and my mom died trying to protect me, if that satisfies your sudden thrist for knowledge. she died before you got it on with my dad so, by then i was almost fully a demon.''

@taehyung kim. ()Omg my poor baby akasksak I just wnna hug him ;;

The words you speak about you being down in the room, the things your sick father did to you- not to mention hearing 'late mother' it's like a slap to my face and my eyes zoom in on your gorgeous purple flickering orbs. "What--" It was a harsh slap across my face, making me realize the reality of it all. "I told you taehyung, he told me you left me! You abandoned me, it's what I've been left believing up until today, I still came knowing you abandoned me, at least believing so and here I am my pride up and throwing away my freaking ego and begging you to just see, it was all a misunderstanding and a sick game your father ochestrated to make you pull away from me. Can't you see? He wanted us apart, if I was in your life, you'd have never become this person..." I whisper in sadness, looking at you as I move up on my two feet now, not caring honestly if you were to burn me- I still want to believe you wouldn't hurt me, if you do, I'd embrace it if that's the only touch I'm going to get from you ever again. I feel my heart aching as I press my hand against the trunk of the tree, and as if your emotions travel through the element of earth, passing through the grounded nature, I feed from the tree and feel your immense sadness coursing through my system making me whimper in agony as I close my eyes, my heart and body aching for you, knowing how much genuine pain you're in and you're not lying. "Not even once I doubted you're lying, so you telling me, you can't believe me? The hell tae- I didn't even know about your mom! If I knew you knew I'd be there for you - can't lie to yourself and say the somin you knew and always was with would've turned her back on you- I spend days and nights hunting for you, using every resource possible to search for you and find you. No one came up with word or news of you- it was impossible to hear anything about you, from you, and I believed your sick father, that you just turn away from me, wanting nothing more to do with somebody disgusting like me. Same way you're looking at me now- it's the same picture he painted in my mind of how you think of me. Are you honestly happy knowing that we were both played, lied to and pinned against one another?" I practically hiss out in urgency.

@somin jeon. (im sorry unu;;; tae is cold i warned ;;)

''your words amuse me. you want me to explain what happened but you claim to know the truth.'' i call out, touching my thumb and index finger together to create a small flame and watch it burn, making me for some reason feel calmed down with the sight of it. ''you were the only one who always believed in my dad. i have no good left in me but i never believed a word he said. though fighting was never an option'' i hum, throwing the flame in the air just for it to land on my palm and grow a bit bigger, a smirk following. ''but let my demoniac self make you feel worthless, or at least help to build a worse monster in your mind.'' i whisper, closing my hand to extinguish the fire just to look down at you, directly with an amused smirk on my lips ''while you were busy screaming my dad's name, i was in the room bellow, scratching my skin, ripping myself apart, wishing to die, begging to be free from the maniac spell he cast on me, losing another feather from my wings'' i speak, loudly as i recall that night specifically. ''that night, the person you are looking for, died. that night i drowned that little taehyung who so positively looked at you with the innocence of his late mother.'' i continue, laughing even at how funny this whole situation is to me, now, whose eyes are turning purple again, showing how sad i actually am for this. ''but really, i only have to thank you, for making me an orphan. if it wasn't for you, i'd be shivering until today when that man came to beat me up until i passed out just to wake up next morning and realize i couldn't die.'' i then, my lips and raise a brow ''thanks to you i'm the worse of me, i lost hope in all that was good, in you, in me, in sko and i'm so much better this way. my new wings are lighter, my new soul doesnt want me to fake a smile, my new mind allows me to sit alone and take pleasure from that. so honestly-'' i smirk, bowing my head to you as i let out a loud fit of laughter ''from the bottom of my rotten heart, thank you, somin.''

@taehyung kim. ()Sobs you're killing me man ;;

Listening to everything up until this point, once I see you walking over to the tree, I sigh softly, not even bothering to follow, instead I step a bit closer so I'm in the center of the field in the forest, and I sit cross-legged staring up at the beautiful guy I knew once before, but now questioning myself if it's true that you really covered up this demon all along and you were simply pretending to be someone oh so good, and righteous. It is quite the possibility and just the thought of this alone has my heart aching, because alas, no man is to be trusted apparently. Closing my eyes a bit to gather my thoughts and gulp down carefully I look up at you and sigh softly. "I told you, I never knew where the you were, I'm sure if you ask your stupid father, he'd say I'm lying, you know what taehyung- if you wanna believe I'm so fake and a and all the you be thinking up in that head of yours- go right ahead darling, coz I at least know it's not true." Glaring at you a bit, I'm about to move from my position and simply leave, honestly being drained beyond words, mentally, emotionally and physically, it's like your harsh treatment to me simply out all of the life from me, making me close my eyes to keep my tears in, hating the fact that I feel so much emotion from you still. "I'm being honest with you and I never left you, I looked all over for you! Even though, your father told me the truth- that you simply wanted to be rid of me and left because you're fed up of me leaning on you for help and you hate the despicable creature I am, but look at you- tae, you're even worst off than me." I cannot help but snort as I hold the little bead in my fingers, twirling it around a bit and feeling the energy radiating off of it, it comes off as the innocent being you were back then and it has me longing for him once more, but he's gone. "I do not know why I even bother looking for you when you wanted nothing but to get rid fo me and to never be around me, coz I was never to you, yet, here I am even though, you crumpled what little of my ing heart I had to pieces, here I am begging you for a chance to explain what really happened and even when I told you- you're being a blind about it."

@somin jeon. i snort, looking elsewhere as i'm not able to face you as for once, i admit; you know too much about me and my eyes would give away how i'm feeling something i honestly wouldn't want to bring up, for my own good, for the sake of all the memories i've tried my best hiding. 'i was there when you ed my dad'' i spit out, eyes climbing one of the trees as i suddenly feel the urge to do the same, having me turn around and make my way towards it, easily climbing and seating myself in one of the branches, feeling like this distance is safer for me even if you can still see my eyes. nothing would give me more pleasure than destroying you right there, with the same words you used to build the wall i had crashed against more than once in the past. ''no, that's where you're wrong'' i say, firmly as i find myself laughing at how ridiculous all of this seems. ''maybe i was fake, who knows? maybe the angel you met was just a cover up, just like the ridiculous story you're making up'' i point out, touching my cheek with my right hand. ''you know nothing about me, it seems. and don't spoeak so easily of my mom'' i growl, eyes easily turning back into the fire red i had been showing ever since you came into my vision field. im aware that no matter how many years pass, it will still hurt and i'll never get over it. ''for someone who never had a single care in the world, claiming to have a heart now, that's ridiculous. you house yourself in my country, and you want me to believe you have a heart? that's such a joke..like yourself, somin. you can't change your nature so don't preach to me when you, yourself, did wrong. you really dont know me. did you bother looking for me? you didn't. you left my dad's body behind, the same way you left me. you have no idea what i went through but...thank you'' i call out the last words with a smirk, eyes slowly returning to brown, their original color ''thanks to you i became who i am today, thanks to you i fed my inner demon all the hatred it needed to destroy the little boy you were so fond of.'' with that, i flip towards you the little wooden bead i own, smirking ''have a little souvenir from fos, because that's the only thing you'll ever get from your oh so lovely taehyung.''

@taehyung kim. Where was all this hostility coming from, I know it's not you- even though the purple dissipates from your round, innocent-looking orbs- I know this cannot be you. It just cannot, I trust my instincts and I know something must have happened- some dotish misunderstanding to have you acting out in this way towards me and I feel my resolve disappearing as I slump my shoulders a bit, the torch dimming in my hand as well- seeing as the power within me slowly dies as I stare at your now vacant eyes and then it hurts me, when you throw that line at me, talking about burning in my own flames and it hurts even more, of course, hearing you hurl the insult at me talking about your father and I, I cannot help but look at you in shock and anger and sadness. "How do you even know about that? You ran the away taehyung- so who are you to judge me huh? If you even took the chance to find out what the hell happened- then you'd not be such a dickhead, but no- you guys are always being a douche." I snort and a little sizzle of my flame ends up splitting out to reach just before your shiny shoes and I glare at you with disgust now, not believing that this is how you're gonna get on over something that I'm innocent in. "Your father manipulated me and seduced me that night, insinuating to me you ran away because I'm such a vile creature, that one night I needed you to be there more than ever for me, hug me and tell me It's gonna be okay and keep me grounded, tae I killed him dammit and you weren't even there! I found out you just fled you, your mom, you! Especially you, don't worry your dad told me how much you thought of me as scum- I know I am - was, I told you but YOU insisted I was not, spoke to me, told me I have a heart somewhere, that's why I care and could be different and he told me you just thought of me as disgusting, unlike him--- he saw I was trying to be different, better." I whisper lowly, and look at you, "he was there when you hitch tail because I was nasty to you apparently and then you call yourself someone of angel race back then?" I snort, "guess you were always fake even back then."

@somin jeon. instead, i walk forward, not letting my shadows follow me. i stand in front of you, now, smirking. ''i'm not the same creature you met. that innocent angel yu met, died the day you picked his father over him.'' i call out, snorting at all the warnings you call out to me, nowhere near scared for your meaningless words. ''and so what? you expect me to be scared of someone who ed up my life?'' laughing, i look elsewhere, knowing i might explode in anger soon as i haven't been interacting with any creature lately or for the past few years for that matter. ''weren't you the one who left me, though?'' crossing my arms, i take a couple steps back, wanting to grow a distance between us just to look at you, the purple overpowering the red dissipating from my eyes. ''i'm not the angel you met. that angel died i can assure you that. you're not my friend either and i couldn't care the slightest for you. i wish you would've burnt in your own flames that night, really. but sadly nothing ever goes my way.'' i hum, amused with the argument you're bringing up and how fired up you're getting. ''you're not irreplaceable, just so you know. you happened to be at the right time in the right place, for my dad, that is.''

@taehyung kim. That last sentence you stated, after I tried approaching you time and time, all you keep doing is stepping back, it breaks my heart, oddly enough- I do have feelings for you and that past I had when I killed 'him,' I cared about you genuinely, so of course, this must be what it feels like having your 'heart,' ripped into shreds. I know I'm soulless and not suppose to care- but something in me isn't wired right and I am a caring lampad. "I--" I do not even know what to say anymore because I'm stunned at how rude you're being right now, my eyes squint at the tint of purple lining your beautiful orbs- it's hard to notice, but it's there, definitely nonetheless, causing me to choke up a bit. "What...Of course, I know what it means, I'm not the one who abandoned their friend in need tae- stop being a ." I sneer out, my own anger and frustration rising- I wasn't coming out to be a , but honestly right about now, you're bringing out nothing but that- the in me, my free hand curling into a fist as I feel the fire within me thrumming, I have anger issues that's buried deep down something I try my utmost best at controlling, but things like this- spark that fire deep within and if it comes down to me lashing out- I dare not would want to start a fight and cause harm upon you- nor myself, seeing as you're definitely the guy I knew back then. I feel my anger slowly dying as I step closer. "Stop running away AGAIN." I state the word harshly as I glare at you. "I'm not gonna freaking do you anything- the hell tae, what the hell happened to you huh? Were you pretending to be nice to me and be my friend only to be an in reality?"

@somin jeon. your words bring memories into my head, memories i'd rather forget as everything still seems recent, no matter how many years had passed, seeing my mother die, my dad under what seemed one of your spells after he had chased me down and blamed me for my mom's death. my eyes by now had a very confused mix of purple due to the sadness and red seeing i haven't managed to calm down. seeing you coming towards me has me stepping back once again, not wanting you to be close to me ''you know nothing about me'' i call out, trying my best to hold onto my emotions even though they're a complete mess by now seeing i can barely form any sort of logical sentence to spit at you; but i didnt want to give you the easy way out, no, i didn't want to explain to you anything. why i vanished, why i hated you so much. ''friend'' i scoff after repeating that word, anger boiling within me ''do you even know what that means?'' i spit, smirking before i shake my head and look at the floor ''demons don't have friends, they don't need them...and i don't need you.''

@taehyung kim. I'm surprised I hear such animosity from you and I'm here standing, shocked, flabbergasted, mouth opening and closing like a gawking fish as I look at you with nothing but stupor slithering through my system. "What the hell, Kim Taehyung." I practically call out in something akin to a sneer, as I step closer, not believing my eyes that you're enraged with me, added to the fact that I hear and smell the disgust coming from you, being a goddess sure has its perks but right now- I wish I couldn't indulge so much into knowing it all because coming to you it breaks my heart and it's like breaking me all over again. You're here being angered at me when you're the one who just ran away without even caring to say goodbye or explain why? "How could you huh? Asking me that when you did nothing but just run away without a word, a trace? What the hell the...i thought you were my friend?!" I finally hiss out, emitting all my frustrations and heart ache.

@somin jeon. my eyes only highlight the red covering them, being now clear that i'm mad, pissed off even. you were the last person i ever expected to see seeing i felt betrayed. ''what are you doing here?'' my voice calls out quietly, having me gathering my shadows behind me, to protect them. i slowly get up, eyes never leaving your figure not surprised you changed nothing, no single inch unlike me who became the opposite of what i used to be. the way my name leaves your lips makes me shiver out of frustration feeling disgusted to even hear your voice ''what do you want?'' i ask, instead, stepping back into a darker place as i try to take a hold of my emotions knowing you can read them off easily thanks to my eyes.

@taehyung kim. With the consolation of having your shadows bringing me forth to the area where you are, I'm instantly catching onto your energy without much validation or confirmation. I could easily sense my old friend- the one and only person who has been there for me, appreciated me and helped me through so much when he thought he was nothing worthy of love, I did care and love you- however, you just left, disappeared without a trace, your father was looking far and wide for you, gone without a trace. As I hear you mumbling, my feet make themselves known as I shuffle closer and I peer into the woods, making my fiery presence known, the torch being held in my hand- it always being something I carried with me 'light bearer,' after all, it's who I am. Without it I feel rather , as I look at you- my breath hitches tremendously and I feel my eyes soften but my lips thin out as I feel a sense of betrayal and mild annoyance. "Taehyung..."

@somin jeon. my lips press together as i look at the small amout of water i've managed to gather in my palms, not exactly pleased with the sight knowing i can bring out more than /just/ this. i exhale loudly only to lift my head as i see a shadow returning to me, to report something ''you found another hole?'' i mumblle, scrunching my nose as i've asked the shadow to search around this unkown area seeing i like being alone more than anything. i close my eyes for a moment, breathing in calmly only to hear the sound of footsteps, my eyes quickly bringing out the red color taking over. ''who's there?'' i call out, loud enough for the intruder to hear me, ready to fight if needed.