Soma's Hospital

@Uruha [semi-hiatus] [[ haha okay xD]]

Continuing to stare at the floor while drawing with his foot, Sungmin heard the other walk away. After he stopped hearing the footsteps he counted to 80 before slowly looking up through his lashes. Seeing that the other was gone he sighed and slowly turned around. With a heavy back he dragged his feet towards his own room, not knowing what else to do or where else to go.

@Sungmin [semi-hiatus] [ I don't f'ing know xD ]

As much as he wanted to turn around, and pull the latter back into a tight hug, he couldn't make himself; only continuing on his way. Uruha lowered his head slightly and slid the door open to disappear inside; mumbling softly as he did so.

@Uruha [hiatus] [[ lol why? :D ]]

Sungmin didn't know what to reply the other, soninsteadnof saying something he just continued to stare at the floor, counting the seconds as they passed. "I'm such a big jerk, aren't I?" He thought to himself while slowly drawing some circles with his foot.

@Sungmin [semi-hiatus] [ ;n; sorry? ]

Uruha looked away, a small chuckle leaving his lips "I'm only telling the truth. I'm trying to help." His words were laced with bitterness. This is why he didn't bother with others. The doctor's attitude had changed within the blink of an eye, raising a hand to rub his forehead. "If your not going to listen to me, you've got no reason to be speaking with me..If you need my assistance with something, I'll be in my office" Through gritted teeth, he spoke before turning back to go back to walking.

@Uruha [hiatus] [[ omg amber... Can't stop laughing! Made my day! xD Uruha yes ;-; ]]

Sungmin choked on the air for a brief second as he heard the others reply. "It's not.. It's not it's not it's IT IS NOT!!" he exploded. "It's not better here! It's all hiding... You don't live.. You never see the world... You never learn the real life... You... Your just locked away..." He trailed of and stared at the floor. "I don't belong here... I belong outside... But I don't belong with anyone there... Not anymore... I used to have someone... But now I don't..." He started to shake again, but not because of sorrow this time, but because of tears. "I.. I don't belong with anyone right now.. Just like you right now.. Everyone turns away from me and leave me all alone..." He the said, his voice having the tone of having given up the fight or survival.

@Amber [ XDDD Wow. That made my day. ]

@Uruha [hiatus] [Good boy. That is the correct answer. You all belong with me]

@Sungmin [ Really? ;n; XD It kinda did, I just noticed that. ]

The Japanese male let out a rather soft hum, closing his eyes for a second before looking at him. "Indeed I do, you remind me of myself, why do you think I'm helping you?" He asked, though it sounded a bit harsh, as if he wouldn't. "You are, darling. If you haven't noticed, everyone is" Uruha stated simply, turning his back to him to slowly begin walking. "You've started realizing unconsciously that it is better to be within Soma walls." His head lowered, shaking his head slightly. "That's the point..You stay here because no one is going to hurt you..the cycle ends when you give in and settle where you belong...and we all belong here" He knew his answer was quite bitter, but he was right.

@Uruha [[omg I felt like crying ;—; dunno why but it kind of sounded like goodbye forever xD]]

Carefully he listened to everything the older had to say, trying to stop crying as the other wiped away his tears. But as the other took a step back and bowed he panicked, somehow he felt like he's be left there all alone. "Wa-wait!" He called out in a shaking voice. "You know me, you know what I've done..." He started but trailed off. Somehow it did feel like he was hiding from the others now, since it seemed his only friend he had had outside of the mansion, actually belonged to the mansion. "I... I've always tried to hide from the soma... Not the others..." He restarted. "But... Why do I feel like I'm hiding inside the soma?" He asked without expecting an answer. "Even though what happened with my brother... I still continued to stay away from the soma mansion and live outside... Yet... I'm here again, looked away from the outside and not really trying o get out again... " he paused for a moment before continuing again with a painful voice. "If... If life is a cycle like you say... Does that mean the same things will happen to me again like before? But here at the mansion again?" He asked trembling slightly, fearing the others answer.

@Sungmin [ xDD
i dunno what i just wrote ]

Pulling away slightly, Uruha raised his hands to brush the tears away with pale, nimble fingers; leaning to press a kiss to the younger male's forehead. "It's a cycle..we live, we befriend, we love, we get caught, we start over..and it happens over, and over, and over again, my Dear.." The doctor began, running his fingertips over his cheek gingerly. "You hide, and avoid others so that you don't have to continue going through the pain, the sadness, and the heartbreak..You stay within those who will understand, and not get you hurt.." he sighed, giving a slightly sympathetic look. "Your speaking with someone who understands almost better than anyone, being as I'm older..I don't enjoy having the others to my office, and listening to them cry because the ended up losing someone they cared for...I locked myself away so I didn't have to endure the pain any longer, I let myself become a silent, shut off person, a basic slave who does what their told, and doesn't talk back..I did this, so I could stay within the walls that keep our secrets hidden, so I wouldn't have to hurt anymore..Those of you who are brave enough to keep going through this, I cheer you on for being having enough courage..but to those of you who break, I've warned..though, as you can see..I still sit with open arms, welcoming all of you who go against the words, and end up hurt anyway" His voice had lowered, and his eyes had dropped along with his hold on the other. "I am sorry for not being the best with advice other than to hide, but I am trying my best to save what's left of your heart" Uruha looked at him sadly, and took a step back, giving a small bow.

@Uruha [[ haha Lolz.... Why did I mention it xD ]]

Sungmin made a grimace at the word child but he couldn't say anything, the tears were over flowing, making his throat tighten. Instead he just shook his head as the other continued. He didn't believe those words, he didn't belie things would get better one day. At least not for him, maybe for the others. They wouldn't be buried down by the heavy wight o knowing about the soma secret. But for him who would always be cursed... He didn't believe it would become better for him. "If...if things... Really.. Became.. Better.." He sniffed between the cries. "Why... Just why... Would you still keep to yourself and avoid others?" He asked, believing the other would understand where he was going.

@Sungmin [ XD I only just noticed.
cx ]

Sighing, he tightened his arms around him, swaying a bit to calm him down. "Hush, child..It'll be ok one day.." Uruha cooed, smoothing the back of his head "I know how you feel, I've been through the same..it will get better with time"

@Uruha [hiatus] [[ ooops... Was supposed to be family as not smiley O_o and Uruha's actions... Aaaaw! *^^*]]

Sugmin was just about to say "exactly.." when the older suddenly hugged him. Not having been hugged for such a long time he stiffened for a moment before clenching on to the other, buryin his face in his clothes as he started to cry harder.

@Sungmin Uruha didn't honestly know how to reply at the moment, simply looking at him. "I..." he began, only to look down for a second. The doctor thought for a moment before pulling the latter into his arms, hugging him tightly- something he would never do, for anyone.

@Uruha [hiatus] "How could I forget it when it's constantly pushed up my face...." He said now facing the other. "How could I forget that I belong to a smiley who shouldn't exit since it's only causing pain to the members who's on the wrong side of it?" He started to rise his voice without noticing it as the pain in his chest became unbearable. "How could I forget when my own brother can't remember me anymore?" He let out is a whisper. The tears he'd kept inside of him all this time over flooding his cheeks.

@Sungmin [semi-hiatus] "I'm sorry to say, but it is my job." He sighed, and looked at him for a moment; knowing exactly what he was probably feeling at the moment. Uruha shook his head before stepping closer to carefully lift his chin with his fingertips "Don't forget what family's blood runs through your veins, the curse that's marked on your life..It is bound to happen, whether you want it to or not. There will always be a time when something happens and someone..has to be let go, trust me. You can't get close to people, It's pointless. The fear of ending up alone is a constant shadow on most of the family. I can do my best to get it brushed off as nothing, but I will not guarantee anything, Child" His voice seemed distant, looking at him with serious, yet soft eyes. "If I fail to do so, I'm sorry, but it's not my decision"

@Uruha [hiatus] He kept fidgeting with his cap without a word. "Why...?" He asked after a while, not daring to watch the other in the eyes. "You already deleted my brothers.... Why them to?" He felt like something was stuck in his throat, and his eyes were burning. He couldn't blink, he weren't able to move. He was so scared people would forget about him, that he'd end up alone.

@Sungmin [semi-hiatus] Uruha sighed, averting his gaze from the younger male; shaking his head. "I only do things that I'm told. If I'm told to, then yes, I will..without hesitation..but, if it goes unnoticed, I will not do such a thing." He answered honestly, his voice returning to being lifeless.

@Uruha "Then you're going to do it right?" he replied with a swallow while taking off his cap. He fidgeted with it gently, a habit of his he'd had for years. "You're going to delete their memories aren't you?" He asked and faced the floor.

[ Do it xD ]

[you two are funny/cute and I'm tempted to interrupt... XD]

@Sungmin Sliding his hand down to play with the straps on his shorts, he shook his head "Am I? Oh? No, no I'm not dieing" He chuckled. Uruha blinked back at him innocently, head falling into a tilt.

@Uruha Sungmin blinked at the others back as he walked away.
"Uruha,.. just... what's up with you? Something is really weird... you've smiled TWICE today! You haven't even smiled to me ONCE during our other meeting... are you dying?!" the boy asked him because of the shock.

@Sungmin Uruha raised his brow "Uh huh" Was all he said, letting his wrist go with a chuck "Relax, I'm not doing anything" He gave a rare smile, and went back to walking "Just making sure you got back safely"

@Uruha Sungmin pulled of a smile and turned his head "Hi Uruha..." he said and tried not to show how much he wanted to run away. He turned around completely and looked the other in the eyes. "When did you get back? I think I missed you on the way." he replied before quietly adding "or something" without moving his lips.

@Sungmin
Uruha ran his fingers through his toned hair, and sighed; eyes closed until he heard something, eyes opening to see the familiar figure disappear around the corner. He took a few simple steps, catching the boys wrist "Hey, kid"

[ OTL sorry ]

@Amber [[doh.... I'm getting scared for real
o.o

@Sungmin [I will find you~ but right now I'm in a good-ish mood because of my oppas...]

@Uruha After paying for the snacks sungmin slowly started to walk home on street with few of the female gender. He tried to take his time to go home but he was scared Uruha would har gotten home already and told Amber about the exemination. He was scared Amber would look for him and find out he yet had to return, thus he sighed and hurried back to the house.

He didn't run into amber as he got there, but he almost ran into Uruha so he tuned back around the corner he'd just passed.

@Sungmin Uruha sat for a moment before getting to his feet, he was tired and it was getting late; if anyone else needed to see him, they knew where his room was. He grabbed his back after fixing the laces to his shorts and headed back to the main house with a groan of disappointment.