𖤓 taehyung

@kim taehyung:･☀︎ () I'd reply at the beach!

@kim jennie:･☀︎ my cheeks darken at the sudden compliment shot my way and i say nothing in return to it, unable to find myself even uttering a soft thank you. scared if i acknowledge it that it's going to open up boxes i'd closed and locked tight months ago. but even still, my arm slips around your waist so naturally when you stumble into me, my hand finding it's place all too easily like it was muscle memory of how many times i'd done it before.
oh.. uh, let's go down to the beach.. the bonfire might still be set up, that'd be nice?
i shot an almost sad look in your direction as i answered you - and there was something inside of me that knew that kind of setting probably wasn't the smartest way to try and cool off whatever was going on right now, but the stronger side needed to get out of the room - out of such a private area. i nodded my head once as if deciding on my own and gently led you through the doors to head outside, finding the walkway that led down to the beach and following it down with you in tow.
so, jen.. i saw you, uh.. you have your company and all that now? i wanted to reach out when i heard the news. you must be proud of yourself?

@kim taehyung:･☀︎ that's good news then at least right? feeling good, just right? asks curiously before blinking down at your hand in mine and I'm fondly grazing my fingers over the bulging lobes- just as I always would do back then - back then - seems like such a long time ago. it brings a hearty sigh to leave my lips and I chance a sneak glance at your handsome features and even if it's the side-profile - you're beautiful. blurts out and then widen my eyes before clearing my throat. must have been the alcohol - I would blame it on the liquid truth, albeit knowing it's the hidden words I have dwelling deep within me no less. the sudden tug on my hand has my lithe frame stumbling against you and I laugh out softly as my eyes find the outside area you speak of. fingers tightening on yours as my head nods all too gladly. sure. why not. smiling once, I start walking with you but pauses a bit. wanna go to the beach or stay here and sit on the chairs on out there?

@kim jennie:･☀︎ nah... just the right amount of fun, jen. feels kinda like old times, in a way...
when you squeeze my hand again i finally let my fingers close around yours, swallowing slowly as i try to ignore just how familiar it feels to be like this with you - i'd moved on. i'd put our relationship in the past. but here you were reminding me of reasons why i loved you. the familiar touch of your soft fingertips on my large palm - you always traced the lines of my hand, always mentioned how fond you were of their size; you were so small they seemed even larger on your body - i needed to stop. i needed to stop thinking like that. after a moment of silence i clear my throat, getting up abruptly but pulling you up to your feet with me, threading my fingers between yours as i look out of the glass doors leading to outside.
jen. jen come and look at the stars with me? lets go outside. it's.. it's too stuffy in here. yeah? you wanna come?

@kim taehyung:･☀︎ haha i am not making too much fun of you though? i mean you gotta admit- it was pretty cute and childish. teases with a cheeky grin as my eyes flicker down to our hands when you find yourself glancing down at the pair as well. a soft chuckle emitting as my hand squeezes yours once and a soft hum emits. i missed um holding your hand and stuff like this, sorry if it's too much- but just a bit maybe? mumbles softly as my fingers brush over the palm of your hand slowly and I admire how broad they are - always having such large palms to hold me with, since I'm so tiny in comparison, long, firm, strong fingers as well. always making me see stars from a thousand of miles and I couldn't help but smile over at you. it's fine, I would've probably be thinking the very same honestly. so everything just happened in a wild timing and time frame, which wasn't our fault by any means. it's pretty ed up if you ask me. I'm still sorry it hurt you that way...

@kim jennie:･☀︎ ah hey listen. i was being all angsty or whatever, okay? stop makin fun of me~
finally i crack a small smile at the teasing and joking, listening carefully to every word you say to me - absorbing all the information you're offering that i refused to here or acknowledge before. my body tenses slightly though when your hand is in mine, gaze dropping down to stare at them both before i slowly relax again, not really holding your hand back but also not pulling mine away.
i... there's a small part of me that still thinks you were just trying to get back at me, even though i know it's ridiculous.. the timing was just.. man, it was ing bad, huh?

@kim taehyung:･☀︎ listening to you saying that, and admitting to that has me grinding from ear to ear. a soft laugh sounding from my pair as a hum emits. you are indeed right there mister kim. it was a bit immature. teases and peeks up at you before huffing out a chuckle with a slow shake of my head. over the years, I managed to grow from the situation and heal. i still regret hurting you as I did, but i am a rash individual and I always pay and regret my choices when I am done ing over. here I am, still regretting as I flip my hand under yours, squeezing your palm and sighing deeply. i understand. seeing me would just make you feel crappy and not too well about everything. plus, I guess you were curious... but I sure hope you know, yes I rushed and did it, but I.... nothing was meant to be like... i didn't wish to hurt you purposely. i just needed to help me... and I stupidly thought that's how.

@kim jennie:･☀︎ when your head rests against my shoulder i stiffen up, surprised at the sudden closeness of you but i don't push you away nor do i really pull you closer to me - a little unsure of what exactly to do in the moment. i couldn't help but sigh out when you mention the awkward atmosphere, knowing how right you were. it had been more awkward than i'd intended for it to be, but it was hard to know how to act.
i.. should apologise for that too. a couple of my questions and statements were a little, uh.. targeted.. and you didn't deserve that.. i'm sorry for doing that. it was kind of immature, really..

@kim taehyung:･☀︎ surprised that you shifted closer, but so grateful for it, a deep sigh leaves my lips, parting at the touch given and a soft hum emits as my eyes flutter shut and I glance down at your palm, larger than my own encasing mine and I smile softly before glancing over at you. leaning closer and nudging my head a bit into your shoulder. i know it's a far cry and I am pushing all the limits - but the need to be closer was there like an itch! and since earlier it was present, even after all our heart aches, pain and suffering, here we are still trying to smile and be pleasant with each other no less. it means the world you are indeed trying to reach out and make an effort, so I am thankful for that as my eyes peek up to meet yours. i understand the weird hah I think people caught up on the whole awkward atmosphere, I guess that's why jihyo asked that question pft. mutters with a roll of my eyes.

@kim jennie:･☀︎ you were always so beautiful when you smiled, even now, even with the tense conversation we'd had. even after everything we'd been through i'd never be able to deny how beautiful you are. i watched as you finished your drink off, part of me kind of wishing i had one of my own to at least keep my hands busy right now. finally i moved forward, moving to sit down beside you on the edge of the bed so i can reach out and rest my hand over yours; giving it the gentlest of squeezes as i offer you the most reassuring smile i can.
jennie.. it's okay, really. you don't need to worry any more. i'm okay.. it's.. weird. seeing you. but. i'm okay.

@kim taehyung:･☀︎ listening to you and watching all the expressions and broad emotions encompassing your handsome features. always so handsome and truly beautiful inside out. you are one of a kind and I couldn't help but flash a small, tender smile as my eyes soften a bit, lighting up a bit as I hear the sound of you accepting me and a low breath emits as my eyes glance down at the sandwich and my drink before taking a drink from the glass and finishing it off. once I'm done with the little bite in my hand as well - I finally take in a deep breath and let it out with my words. thank you... so much for accepting my apologies taehyung. i ... it really means the world to me... you have no idea how guilt and hurt and anger at myself more than anything weighed on me over the years... and I am just happy you're doing okay and healthy. which is most important to me... thank you.. really..

@kim jennie:･☀︎ there was a pang in my chest when you called me cute, a term of endearment you used a lot when we were dating - i'd always loved how it sounded coming from you but in this moment i hated it. i hated that it made me soften up, i hated that it made me miss you, miss us. but, hearing you apologise seemed to almost take a weight off my heart. i hadn't forgiven your last apology at the time, but i could now.
i.. apology accepted, jen.. i know you were just.. upset, and angry with me. you don't need to explain yourself any more. i... yknow, i'm also sorry. for how i reacted. i never gave you a chance to really... well, to do anything. back then, i wasn't in the right mind to hear it. but you're forgiven.

@kim taehyung:･☀︎ nodding my head at your choice of words, the raw honesty in them couldn't help but leave me laughing under my breath as my eyes twinkle and crinkle at the corners in amusement. you're... cute. that's understandable no less, I mean... sighing deeply, I now realized I called you cute of all things and my jaw clenches slightly in embarrassment as I looked off to the side and closes my eyes once. either way, I'm glad to see a familiar face. someone I wanted to see and just... apologized. i mean... sighing softly, my eyes look into yours and I scan your reactions slowly. it .. what happened between us and I am not condoning any of it to be fair I really am not. but... it just... i just... i made a rash choice and I never wanted to hurt you. i was hurt and I just thought that would help me. i guess it made me a mess more than anything else.

@kim jennie:･☀︎ i...
i was too stunned to even respond to a moment, mind reeling at why you would even bother to go to all that trouble just to talk to me. my brows furrowed as i thought about it, leaning back in the chair as i looked across at you with a utterly confused expression; switching to be raised slightly when you said you were happy to see me, tilting my head to the left curiously.
you're happy to see me? really? well i've been doing pretty good, honestly. i'm healthy, i'm hitting all my goals, impressing my superiors and all that.. and what about you? haven't decided if i'm happy to see you or not yet.. if i can be honest.

@kim taehyung:･☀︎ seeing how unpleasant the thought of your room number being given out, a small smile plays on my lips. relax... i told them that you invited me over for the night and that I am your girlfriend. sorry for lying - but they won't have given me the room number either way. told them that we're going to be sharing this room together officially and tomorrow we would both come to tell them personally. shrugging a bit as I said this, I felt embarrassed for going such an extra mile to get such information out of the resort to be here with you now and my eyes drag over your features as I take a tentative bite out of the sandwich bit and a soft sigh emits from my nose and lips. indeed it has. mumbles after swallowing. first of all. how have you been? I'm... happy to see you truthfully....

@kim jennie:･☀︎ that made sense, i had been about to ask how you knew where my room was before you'd told me - and i made a mental note to ask the front desk to please stop giving my room number out. my eyes never left you as you made yourself at home in my room, for a moment it felt like the old days but just as fast all the memories flooded back and i chewed the inside of my cheek to stop myself from saying something potentially dumb. at the offer of a bite i shake my head, slowly making my way to sit myself down in a chair opposite you.
ah.. yeah, i had a feeling.. it's.. yeah, it's fine. we should talk. i guess. it's been a while since we did that..

@kim taehyung:･☀︎ hmm. yeah i guess my uh inhibitions left through the window and by time I realized what I was doing, I by pass the way to my own room and asked the front desk for your room number. pardon my intrusion. apologizes with a small smile as I walk into your room, very similar to my own as my eyes scan the area and my hands still hold the fingerfoods as well I brought from chaewon's gathering as my orbs find yours and I move to shamelessly make myself at home on your bed as I sit on the edge with a slow tip of my head and hold up a small sandwich for you. want a bite? and.... i wanted to talk to you about some stuff... concerning us, if that's uh alright?

@kim jennie:･☀︎ i could tell from your demeanour that you were still being influenced partially by the alcohol, i hadn't really had enough to feel overly effected (as usual) - and i knew better than to send you off on your own. there was a part of me that didn't really want to be alone with you still, a lot of unresolved feelings were swirling in my chest. but, despite my better judgement i pushed the door open a little more and stepped aside to wave you in, curious of what you had to say.
yeah, i mean.. sure i don't see why not.. i was, uh.. surprised to see you here..

@kim taehyung:･☀︎ noticing the way you looked at me, caused that heat to coil in my stomach - a premise of the alcohol sizzling in my veins and bubbling my crimson blood lining my veins. it was inevitable truth be told. but I couldn't help but flash you a lopsided smile while shrugging a bit. not gonna invite a girl in? i know I was being far too casual about all of this. i am your ex, you're mine. our breakup was mutual but the after side of it all did end up messy with my choices and rash decisions... leading to what we have here between us. sorry... to bombard you, just wanted a one on one uh chat I guess with you, if that's quite alright?

@kim jennie:･☀︎ when i heard the knock at my door you were honestly the last voice i had expected to hear - so much so that for a moment i actually hesitated to open the door; unsure of where this conversation was going to lead. it had been a while since we'd spoken a word privately to each other, and the last time definitely hadn't been exactly pleasant. slowly i reached my hand out, finally decided to flick the lock off and pull the door open to look at you, unable to help the way my eyes immediately scan over your body and what you're wearing, quickly averting them as soon as i realise what i'm doing.
uh, hi.. what brings you this way?

@kim taehyung:･☀︎ after the beach party with chaewon and the others. i know I was a tad bit tipsy - not drunk. but high enough that I had the gall to find your room thanks to the friendly staffs and knock on your door, drink still in hand and my bikini on, with the wrap, hip cocked as I lean on the side of the wall and call out. taehyung... are you in?

@-staff ✷°⋆ hahah thank you!!

@kim taehyung:･☀︎ ― welcome to your private room, we have prepared a special package for you and for an additional surprise, check the nightstand drawer where you would find a couple 'toys' you can have fun with until you find your special person to enjoy it with. we hope you enjoy your stay.

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