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And now, a representation of how life makes me feel nowadays.

☀︎ matty healy [A] 2 minutes ago Reply
IS IT ANXIETY???

felt

If one thing's for certain, I'm feeling suffocated. I want to go home, and not have to come back tomorrow to do this again. Why I sometimes forget that we get the most busy on payday weekends, I'll never know.

IS IT ANXIETY???

I love when I have to guess on why I feel like . Am I being overworked? Am I falling sick? Is the cold weather negatively affecting me? Am I just having a bad asthmatic episode? Nobody knows.

Timothee, Damiano and Pedro, the men that you are.

Now is The Time to experiment, and yet I find myself torn.

Not these compelling AUs coming into existence. Not my AU based muses trying to fight for a spot.

makin bacon spinach soup tonight

Thanks :’) I’m excited to start a new chapter!

Ah I see. That would be a bittersweet moment for me, as well for I've experienced it once before. You had a good run there, Jurin, now it's time to move onto bigger and better things, hopefully.

So it’s just gonna be weird… no longer waking up every day and going 5 minutes down the road ;;

job out of college (plus I worked there throughout college on breaks)

I liked my coworkers and the store was my first full yime

☀︎ matty healy [A] 6 minutes ago Reply
I thought you couldn't wait to leave retail?

That’s still true!! But it’s sorta bittersweet is all

It's a shame I couldn't celebrate my twenties more positively. Since I turned 20 all I've known is hell on earth.

☀︎ hwang hyunjin 19 hours ago Reply
where tf has my life gone

☀︎ hwang hyunjin 19 hours ago Reply
not prepared to be a year older, and one year closer to that big 30 in less than 2 months

This

I thought you couldn't wait to leave retail?

Just had my last shift in retail and I’m kinda… sad

my computer just crashed O . O

where tf has my life gone

not prepared to be a year older, and one year closer to that big 30 in less than 2 months

I went through that same period once or twice, myself. I support it 100% since the internet is an unhealthy place to spend copious amounts of time with.

But yeah, I hope you feel refreshed and reinvigorated from taking some time to take care of yourself and focus on other activities that make you happy

I know in the peak of Christmas season, I didn’t have much energy to do anything and I’ve taken breaks from writing because I felt so drained

Understandable. Having a draining schedule can drain muse, sometimes losing muse is just a thing that happens.

i think with that being said, imma go game again.

the way, that yesterday when gaming- somehow between the conversation between my brother's n i, the topic of moving came up. and one of them said to me "there's nothing really holding you down, you could just get up and move away"
and honestly, they are partially right about that. nothing more that a lingering sense of responsibility.

that was maybe a random "rant" but more so being openly honest with my feelings n such

something i been thinking about lately. but, the more that time goes on, the more my need, want, and "muse" slips away from me.
no longer feeling that urge and excitement to hop online and be active. nor do i think i can give people who deserve better, better?? i dont wanna feel like i'm expected to be around and give my all. this has been something on my mind for a while, and maybe it's just the fact that december life outta me bc my work schedule has been so up n down and perhaps i'm experiencing burn out. not sure what it is, but everything feels suffocating. i'm not sad, mad, or anything else of that nature. just tired and need space. and i'm being more selfish with my own needs, wants, and happiness. spent a lot of time offline, just doin my own thing- playing games, spending time with family, etc and despite the hectic month i've experienced.. ive actually felt happy. i believe it's nothing mental health wise, just mentally and physical fatigue wise.
i'm tired, and cant pretend i like things that i dont.