AGAIN!! OTL

*le sigh* My second blog post is even more depressing than the first =.= but it has to be done...

So this is what's going on in my life at the moment and the recent reasons that I'm not really online anymore OTL

1. I STILL have a super controlling mom that is also a homophobe that has found my notebook collection of eunhae oneshots and doesn't trust me alone with anything -.-
2. The college I wanted to attend rejected me (*feels like a super fail* *le sigh*)
3. I am on full time job search since my last job laid me off (the area I live in has horrible economy)
4. My pregnant friend is about to have her baby and I've been helping her with a lot of stuff like rearranging her room and keeping her nephew busy cause he almost caused her to have a miscarriage -.-
5. My friends grandmother recently passed away and I was good friends with her too, she was real nice and then it just happened~
6. We're still settling into the new apartment but at the moment moneys kinda tight (I've been eating peanut butter from a jar the past few days cause there's nothing else to eat)
7. My brother is still doing drugs despite the intervention~
8. That same brother just moved out the house to go with our dad (who's a serious -.-) so he can do more drugs
9. My mom has been super depressed and is taking it out on her last two kids left in the house.
10. My EX-friend just showed up again (He apparently had a crush on me since elementary but did the worst thing ever -.-) and now he's trying to 'win my love' but I don't think I can forgive him for what he's done
11. My EX-boyfriend also came back (he was friends with my EX-friend) but literally tried to kill me (and I'm not lying, I don't like to lie)
12. I've been super depressed and super unmotivated due to the excessive heat.
13. My other friend's Super Crush since she was a child keeps leading her on but now he has a girlfriend and she doesn't know what to do and she keeps coming to me for advise.
14. My other brother that's still at home is being the most annoying thing ever and it's driving me insane!
15. My 'friend' from middle school just recently got married but keeps trying to start some with me. She keeps bumping into me and gets uncomfortably close and keeps saying that things along the lines of 'Her husband doesn't need to find out' (WTF)
16. My pregnant friend's sister has a guy in jail practically stalking her even though she's a minor and it's a whole legal issue.
17. My cousin that almost overdosed is fine but she's getting really into alcohol these days and keeps getting drunk
18. I ran into my Ex-girlfriend from high school and she called me a disgusting freak, pretty much degraded me in front of her new boyfriend and left me. I actually really liked her but it turned out she was just playing around with me. I've never really dated or trusted anyone since...
19. My entire body is sore, I have a bunch of bruises, mostly on my legs and abdominal area.

          That's pretty much my life right now.. it seems like my past is starting to catch up to me, mostly my high school life I guess. I'm sorry for my oober depressing life again, I'm sure you don't want to be told depressing things and right now I'm too tired to gif spam. But at least my health is better and I don't have the threat of dying from sickness ^u^