I'm more or less hoping one person will see this. I kinda disappeared, deactivated my account, and left. (Funny story, if you do that you can reopen the account by logging in...)
I'm pretty much going to copy and paste the lame apology I made on AFF, which if you want to talk, I have the same exact username as of on here, I'm not sure if I'll ever log into this account again, I might, but I feel guilty as hell.
But this is more or less what my mindset was in the past couple of years =/. I got into a really bad place and I knew I was slipping back down into a place I haven't been since Freshman year of high school where I pulled the same exact things as I did on here, but like, that time I waited a while.
Heres the lame apology:
I went to my last year of Highschool, and it was very demanding and they put me in the most difficult classes they could because "You're too smart to go into any other class"... a counselor said those exact words to me. However, I have ADD, and it got pretty bad with all the stress coming around. I would constantly break down in school. And I never really got a break before I started my first job ever, and the managing was a load of crap, to be honest, so my mind kinda shut down, and I would hang out on Minecraft because it was nice talking to people and yeah. Then when College started for me last year, I was so happy to be done with Highschool and was going to continue to write, and I was doing semi-okay before I got another job, and suddenly it was Minecraft, RPR, School, Work, and here pulling me every which way. I gave up Kpop all together for a bit because I wanted to focus on school. However, I did something that was really ty and got even more involved in Minecraft. I got sick this January, like really bad, and started failing the semester I was working on. February came along, and without any friends to lean back into, I fell into a deep depression, and wouldn't do anything really, then I realized how much I was letting school slip which became EVEN WORSE for me and I started telling myself that I wasn't worth it and that I was letting everyone down. In March, I gave up Minecraft a little bit and tried working to save my school work and whatnot, but somehow in April I was pulled back into it and fell even deeper into depression, and there was no way I could save my grades. It was the first time in my life I failed all of my classes, or even failed a class, which was really hard for me. May, this month, I started getting a lot better as I had time to think who do I want me to be, and everything.
I've given up Minecraft for a while, to be honest, and I can focus on stories more, especially since I have nothing to do. I got the idea for a new story and started typing as much as I could (most of that got deleted because it more than usual lol), but then I decided that I wanted to post on here again and remember the story I'm currently working on.
I am really sorry.
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